a day in school before exam

Today is special day for me. I spent my whole day in school for photo taking. I so exhausted.

Special thanks to Anne who helps me to make up. Thanks a lot! Actually, I don’t really like to make up because I look like turned to another person. I’ll step into working life soon so I can’t avoid it. I should learn how to make up now.

After that, we have met my president of my university. During the refreshment, she talked to us. She is a nice lady. I don’t like talk to this kind of person because she definitely to forget who am I and the talk is blank.

One of the officers in UTAR is very nice; she shared a lot thing with us. I very appreciate the time spent with her. Nice~~ at the end of our talk, she thought that I’m a singer. Haha.. She is very surprised that I’m the student.

If I not make up, people will think that I’m younger. As I went for career fair hold in Mid Valley and I met my hometown’s friend there. Her friend can’t believe my age. Wow… :p happy. My conclusion is make up makes me look old.

I’ll upload my photo soon.

stay

My final exam is just around corner. It is my last exam for my student life. Continue to study to get master degree? My answer is NOT for the moment.

After that, I have to apart with my university’s friends. I really can’t felt anything. People are comes in and out in my life, I have learn to get used of it.

Finally, I chose to stay in KL first. This is a guide from God. I believe that He revealed His plan for me. Now, I’m very clear where should I be. Thanks God for all that.

Recently, my cell group leader is kind of nervous when she knows that I might leave here. She cares me so much and my heart felt so warm. I’ll never forget about you who asked me to stay here whether you means or not. Haha.. The word you said and the song you sang. I do care even my reaction are not. Sorry, I’m the person who is slow in response.

Since I choose to stay here, I think I will join choir in my church. I stepped out to serve really out of my plan. This is new challenger for my life. The reason of not serve is I afraid I’ll be kind of person will burned out and lost my passion to my God. The test is so tough and I pray I can overcome!

Good friday

Good Friday but I did the worst thing. Oh my God!!!

Very sorry to Jimmy, due to miscommunication end up you have to take a cab to go cell group. I never expected this kind of thing will happen. I promise I’ll never repeat again.

I’m felt so guilt about it. Even thought I was sit inside the car. This is terrible moment that I ever have. It drives me mad. I’m so sorry.

On my way heading to cell leader house, a voice of devil keeps haunting me. “Oh, see what you have done?” “You are disappointing somebody?” “How you can be so irresponsible?” it does drive me crazy. I have intention try not to attend the cell group. After that, I convinced myself by not do so. Well, since I make a mistake, just admit it that I’m wrong.

After that, I stepped into lift. I eventually go to 17^th floor while my destination is 18^th floor. I thought that why cell group changed the place but nobody is told me. Super blur!After that, I finally knew that I make a mistake.

Why we called today as Good Friday? 2000 year ago, a man chooses to die on the cross for us and use his blood to cleanse to wash away our sin. He became intermediate between God and us so that we can stand before the Lord again. If not his forgiveness, I wonder how to overcome the devil’s word. If not him, the sin I committed today and who can came to take it away?

His name is Jesus, my Lord and my Savior. Thank you for what you done on 2000 years ago and cleanse from unrighteousness. I keep my focus on You alone.

我笨

我嘲笑自己的愚昧，笑我又笨又傻，心不止叹气。谁来把我从流沙拉起？世界不会因为一个人离开了而有什么改变，它会依旧美好。

我对未知不再恐惧，却有了另一份坚定。也许就是顾虑太多，才让自己不能理性做出判断。恨啊！

也许，我已厌倦泪水，讨厌这颗任性的心。我只想逃离。。。

大家都要好好活着。。感谢耶稣，给我继续下去的勇气。。

不想在那个圆圈绕个不停，我很累，我要出来！！！请释放我。。。

felt bad

I felt bad! Canteen aunty treats me so nice. Aiyo..

There is canteen in my hostel with many different stalls. One time, I order her food. She is so nice, she give me the food featuring with a free drink. Oklah, this is trick to win over customer. I understood.

Today, I went down for dinner again. This time round, I ordered food from other stall. There is a girl who same table as me ordered her food. Unsurprising, she offered her a free drink. Oklor, since I not order her food and I not aspect I can get a free drink from her.

When the moment she looked at me, she is mumble something like I want gives her a drink. My sense was correct, she indeed offer me a free drink. When she gives me a free drink, I shock when I looked at her.

Erm… what I can say? Actually, I don’t really like her food. But, how? Should I buy something from her to cease my guilt?

It makes me thought that when the love you give is not return back. What would you do? Will you continue to love even you know that the person is not love you? I learnt before that we love not because we want the love back. Love of God is greater compare with any other love in the earth. His love to us remains faithful.

John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life.”

Yes. His love to us is great! He can give us his only son, Jesus to die on the cross to wash away our unrighteousness, so we can stand before Him again.

coffee bean

I went out together with my group assignment member to coffee bean to do assignment. I really like the environment over there. Everything is nice. Environment is nice, drink is nice, music is nice, dessert is nice, service is nice and price is definitely is “nice” also.

Even I have internet service in my room but I enjoyed the moment over there. I like there more. Now, I know the reason why some people like to kill the time over there. It really makes people felt comfortable.

While we are doing our work, we do chat a while. Our discussion is about “fall in love”. When girl is fall in love and they are falling inside. On the other hand, when a boy falls in love then they just fall in love. Nothing much changes in their life. There is a huge difference. I just wonder why and how.

I’m waiting for you to come in my life. Who is the one? I still wait for…

serve in His house

Today is a great day. In the end of service, I was being challenging to serve choir ministry in the church even only for 3 months by a voice. What should I said? I keep convince myself that it is just an illusion. On the stage, you need makeup and dress nicely. For your information, I can’t do both of them well. I don’t even know how to make up. My dressing is very casual one.

After that, I decided to ask my cell group leader. I was confused because I still not sure whether I’ll keep staying here or not. Lee Choo advised me to join usher ministry first. I decided to listen to her advice because she is my leader.

Just now, a case happened in my hostel. A girl attempted to commit suicide by jumping from building. Out of curiosity, I’m out to check. When I was there, I can’t see anything. I was rebuked by Holy Spirit; I should pray for safety of that person and not join the crowd.

Not matter how bad thing is happened, you chose to end your life is irresponsible way to solve problem and it can’t be forgiven. No wonder reach out to the lost is a must. When people lost the purpose in life, they need support badly.

Yeah! Usher ministry, here I am to serve. Haha..