Girls tend to be silent when they are upset. How true it is? At least, it is apply on me. In the course of making marriage work, when my pastor said so and I’m surprising because I never realize that it does applied on me.
When I sad, I’ll not speak anything and my mind is wonder around. But, when I too tired and I also will be like that.
I’m emotionally shutdown during my secondary school because I did not meet an expectation that my mother and teacher have on me. Then, I started to felt discouragement and disappointment. Sooner, I’m numb my ability to feel and I don’t love anyone.
I seldom talks to my parents. The conservation always started and ends with scolding by them. I trained to be emotionally shutdown to them so whatever they talk to me and I’ll not respond to them.
Thing begins to changed when I have group of my friends with intention to melt an iceberg that is inside of me. They are important people to me because they make me changed a bit.
The tremendously changes is take place in my life after I have invited Jesus as my personal savior. I start to open up to the people around me and I start to love people. I have improved the relationship with my family members. I learn to love the people no matter how they treat me. Even something discouragement and disappointment do happen on me and I chose to overcome it because I know Jesus will always behind to watch over me.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007
One Life, One Love
One Life, One Love by BCS & KC
Who am I
That You would know me from the start
Set me apart
Who am I
That You would place eternity
Into my heart
You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You
One life, I lay at Your altar
One love, I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands
One word, You know I will follow
One heart, broken to You
Use me again
Your mercies follow me
For all my days
In Your presence
In Your power
Holy Spirit, I surrender
This is another song from City Harvest Church Singapore that touches me so much! In emerge Singapore; I know the answer why that pastor told me to be broken for the Lord.
In book Judges is about Gideon and three hundred men against Midianites.
…they blew the trumpets and broke the pitchers…
In order to let the light shine out, the pitchers must be broken. God will work through brokenness, but if you are not broken before the Lord, your light can’t shine off.
Be broken to Him. It is no longer I live, but Christ who lives in me.
Who am I
That You would know me from the start
Set me apart
Who am I
That You would place eternity
Into my heart
You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You
One life, I lay at Your altar
One love, I have with You
Touch me again
Fill me as You hold
My outstretched hands
One word, You know I will follow
One heart, broken to You
Use me again
Your mercies follow me
For all my days
In Your presence
In Your power
Holy Spirit, I surrender
This is another song from City Harvest Church Singapore that touches me so much! In emerge Singapore; I know the answer why that pastor told me to be broken for the Lord.
In book Judges is about Gideon and three hundred men against Midianites.
…they blew the trumpets and broke the pitchers…
In order to let the light shine out, the pitchers must be broken. God will work through brokenness, but if you are not broken before the Lord, your light can’t shine off.
Be broken to Him. It is no longer I live, but Christ who lives in me.
Friday, June 8, 2007
单身
“很多人担心自己老了没有人照顾，便在突然发现年华不再时，匆匆忙忙寻找可以结婚的对象，真的结婚了，某一天醒来突然发现身边的人根本不是她想要的，然後接下来一辈子处在後悔当中。
可是又固执的不肯承认错误，认为结婚才算完成人生必经过程，对於其他的单身女子也多了催促，用著一样的话去威胁恐吓，好像所有人都得跟她一样，她的日子才会好过点，因为大家都一样，就算她不是找到最爱的那个，反正身边的人一样找不到真爱。
把生活焦点摆在「一切只为单身做准备」上头，她想的只有怎么照顾自己，怎么独自生活，而不是苦恼的想著要去抓住一个男人，离开单身这个身分。”
这是从某个网站抄写过来，写出我的心境。其中写的也是我友人的故事，他和她一起并不是因为爱，只是因为需要。我无法呵责他，这是他的选择。他却嘲笑我没有这种待遇，我不想多反驳他，我懒得对人解释这种小事，既然他这么认为我是一个没有吸引力的人，那我便是。这是他试探别人秘密的绝招，幸好没上当。嘻嘻！
出席新加坡参加脱颖而出大型布道会时，当台湾歌手刘耕宏当场向他女友求婚时，场面感人，我的眼泪夺眶而出，我无法控制，泪流满面。我还真不好意思，觉得自己太情绪化，后来才猛然发现和我坐在一的大部分女生也是哭得稀里哗啦。真爱难求! 也许，我被他们的真心感动，或者我伤心着我没有她的他。
当然，现阶段的我满意单身状况，如果没有让我触动我心的，那还是算了吧！我宁愿把时间花在想想如何增加我的财富。。
I’m strong disagreeing that money is root of evil because I’m believe that lack of money is root of evil.
可是又固执的不肯承认错误，认为结婚才算完成人生必经过程，对於其他的单身女子也多了催促，用著一样的话去威胁恐吓，好像所有人都得跟她一样，她的日子才会好过点，因为大家都一样，就算她不是找到最爱的那个，反正身边的人一样找不到真爱。
把生活焦点摆在「一切只为单身做准备」上头，她想的只有怎么照顾自己，怎么独自生活，而不是苦恼的想著要去抓住一个男人，离开单身这个身分。”
这是从某个网站抄写过来，写出我的心境。其中写的也是我友人的故事，他和她一起并不是因为爱，只是因为需要。我无法呵责他，这是他的选择。他却嘲笑我没有这种待遇，我不想多反驳他，我懒得对人解释这种小事，既然他这么认为我是一个没有吸引力的人，那我便是。这是他试探别人秘密的绝招，幸好没上当。嘻嘻！
出席新加坡参加脱颖而出大型布道会时，当台湾歌手刘耕宏当场向他女友求婚时，场面感人，我的眼泪夺眶而出，我无法控制，泪流满面。我还真不好意思，觉得自己太情绪化，后来才猛然发现和我坐在一的大部分女生也是哭得稀里哗啦。真爱难求! 也许，我被他们的真心感动，或者我伤心着我没有她的他。
当然，现阶段的我满意单身状况，如果没有让我触动我心的，那还是算了吧！我宁愿把时间花在想想如何增加我的财富。。
I’m strong disagreeing that money is root of evil because I’m believe that lack of money is root of evil.
Thursday, June 7, 2007
women hard to understand
As a woman, I cannot understand well other women also.
Erm.. The story begins when my friend asked me whether I’m hometown already or not. Then, I informed her that I’ll stay here to search for a job. She is kind of angry to ask me why I don’t want come for her wedding.
After that, I recalled back that she is the one told me that her wedding on 8 July. I decided to ask her again. I’m right. The reason was she wants me to see her wedding photo. Phew…
I just felt something amiss and wonder she become so emotional. Suddenly, I understand the reason why. So, I text her again about whether she wants me become her bridesmaid. The answer is yes.
Sometimes, girls just assume that he or she should know what I try to say since he or she knows me well. LOL… Oklah, sometimes I also like that. I still learning.
Erm.. The story begins when my friend asked me whether I’m hometown already or not. Then, I informed her that I’ll stay here to search for a job. She is kind of angry to ask me why I don’t want come for her wedding.
After that, I recalled back that she is the one told me that her wedding on 8 July. I decided to ask her again. I’m right. The reason was she wants me to see her wedding photo. Phew…
I just felt something amiss and wonder she become so emotional. Suddenly, I understand the reason why. So, I text her again about whether she wants me become her bridesmaid. The answer is yes.
Sometimes, girls just assume that he or she should know what I try to say since he or she knows me well. LOL… Oklah, sometimes I also like that. I still learning.
emerge singapore 2007
Thanks for Kee Hiap fetched me to church on Wednesday night. After gather, we take a bus to go to Singapore.
It was not a peaceful journey, the bus driver keep on and off the light and I try to sleep as much as I can. Haih.. We stopped at Yong Peng to have our supper around 3am. We reached the Customs at 5am. Finally, we reached National University of Singapore (NUS) Prince George’s Park Residences before we get ready for service.
I have to say I’m too tired and I could not give my best on the first day. I can fall sleep while I’m standing during praise session. Oh My God! On the first day, all I know was I need rest and food. I’m hungry and super tired!
Here comes a second day, I’m still quite blurring on the morning session. After went back from Tampines Mall, I gained back my energy. I felt being recharged and I can concentrate the night session. Yeah! What a weird theory, shopping recovered back my energy! Haha…
Third day is definitely blast! The service is full of Love of God. Everyone over there was so touch! While we were waiting for bus, you can see everyone is urged to share how great the service was! We can fell the presence of God is strong! As for me, I also have strong desire to share with you about how great is our God! We are serving the awesome God! Yeah!
The last day is awesome! We never lack of presence of God be with us throughout the whole conference. He is so real! I can’t bear to depart from there. I hope I can linger more at there.
I love Your house because it is where Your presence dwell.
The conference truly inspired us! We are on fire on God! We are experience more about God! Well, it is required our obedience to keep the fire burning by daily devotion. It is not about how well you can begin it and it is all about how good you can end it.
To all my brother and sister in Christ, I’m blessed because you are my companion in this journey. Let us keep running together with Him!
It was not a peaceful journey, the bus driver keep on and off the light and I try to sleep as much as I can. Haih.. We stopped at Yong Peng to have our supper around 3am. We reached the Customs at 5am. Finally, we reached National University of Singapore (NUS) Prince George’s Park Residences before we get ready for service.
I have to say I’m too tired and I could not give my best on the first day. I can fall sleep while I’m standing during praise session. Oh My God! On the first day, all I know was I need rest and food. I’m hungry and super tired!
Here comes a second day, I’m still quite blurring on the morning session. After went back from Tampines Mall, I gained back my energy. I felt being recharged and I can concentrate the night session. Yeah! What a weird theory, shopping recovered back my energy! Haha…
Third day is definitely blast! The service is full of Love of God. Everyone over there was so touch! While we were waiting for bus, you can see everyone is urged to share how great the service was! We can fell the presence of God is strong! As for me, I also have strong desire to share with you about how great is our God! We are serving the awesome God! Yeah!
The last day is awesome! We never lack of presence of God be with us throughout the whole conference. He is so real! I can’t bear to depart from there. I hope I can linger more at there.
I love Your house because it is where Your presence dwell.
The conference truly inspired us! We are on fire on God! We are experience more about God! Well, it is required our obedience to keep the fire burning by daily devotion. It is not about how well you can begin it and it is all about how good you can end it.
To all my brother and sister in Christ, I’m blessed because you are my companion in this journey. Let us keep running together with Him!
Monday, June 4, 2007
i'm back
Finally, I’m back to Kuala Lumpur again. I’m so tired! I should update friendster first or my blog, I don’t have idea. I just know that I need rest as much as I could.
More will coming..
More will coming..
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