new beginning

Now, the time is 1:54am. It is a very early morning. I’m awake and I can’t sleep because I have too much sleep in the day time.

Currently, I still jobless. I will begin the new job as the assistant manager in the next week. Whoa~~ they offered me RM4000 per month, I wonder how true is that. No matter what, I will work hard to fulfill the requirement. I want the money to realize my dream.

This is another page of my life; I was so surprised that the person who was beside me when I was down was Rico. Well, he did not do anything but he did console me a lot. The person who I thought was a devil previously. Wahaha~~ No doubt that something which came out his mouth is not genuine at all and he did it for some purpose. Anyhow, Rico thanks a lot! I think that the reason was we have a common people who is we dislike most!

Through Rico, I found that Jack has cheated me a lot of the thing. Haih… the businessman is like this. He is a cunning businessman. He is neither a good nor bad person. He just did all the thing for his own good. This is a secret of success man. I did not mean that Rico is a good guy. They just did the thing which is benefiting them the most.

Since we are living in the fallen world, then we don’t expected so much. It is so hard to get a true friend. I have met SK after I quit the job; her recreation is she was kept mock at me. Well, I did not angry at all. I just wonder how bad she was, her purpose is to see how we were fall. My advice to her is not to do it again or else you will get karma. When it goes around and it is comes around. Watch out your tongue!

Through out all things, Tim Ng, I felt very disappointed about your emotionless. Yes! I refer to you, Timothy Ng. Why you can be cruel to me?

This is my brand new start. So, whoever I need to set aside and I’ll do it right now. I will not contact them anymore especially Timothy Ng.

Bye bye to my past. Your are welcome to my future. Even thought I have lost the job but I have gain back the peace from God. After so much, God still faithful to me and his unfailing promise which is he will never forsake me. Thanks, my wonderful God, my heavenly Father!

tmr

i'm damn tired now.. after a trip to skytrex. tomorrow i got job interview. wish me all the best! nicole tan, gambate! yes! u can do it!

quit

Wow! I have another big fight with Jack again. Hence, I decided to quit the job. It is in my mind for a long time. Finally, I can do whatever I want to do. Bye.. JTM.. Bye.. Idiot Jack..

He always treats me as a servant. Do this and that. I can’t rest even is a public holiday. With this not basic salary, I suffer fucking hard. I need to do anything because he wants. My passion towards this is gone..

Thanks for Rudy Khoo, I can use this as excuses to run away, yeah! I have enough for all because he blames me for everything.

nicole need to be changed

I need to readjust myself. It’s time to change. All this while, I have been practiced “I” centric. It was so traditional. I need to breakthrough because I have been breakdown for a very long time.

Now, I need to practice “we” centric. It is all about fellowship not followership.

I need to become brand new NICOLE on 2009.

vision 2009

Vision 2009

January
Rebuilt back my team.

February
Hit team leadership criteria.

March
Develop my team leader within my team.

April
Hit assistant manager.

May
Go to travel after my goal is achieved. Pulau Lang Tengah.

June
Start hunt back my relationship.

July
Hit manager.

August
Start my new office at bukit bintang.

More to came…

2009

What a super bored day!! I trapped in the office and done some admin stuff. I guess that I’m not suitable for office job.

For the past 1 month, my life is extremely down. I lost Rico and Ben at the same time. Due to some conflict, they are not work with me anymore. I upset about it. I even cry for it. I understand that the reality is cruel and I decided to let it go. I’ll be fine.

When Rico’s birthday, I called him and greet him. I very disappointed with what he said. He thought that the reason I called him because I’m lonely. After that, he knows that I’m doing quite well in event, he try to source out the information about how I’m doing. Well, its fine and I don’t mind to give him some guide. But, the way he asked me and make me felt totally disappointed. His intention is make used of me is my conclusion.

I never forget that the way of how he talks to me in out last conversation. Just less than a month, he has changed so much. I glad that I have make a right choice by stay where I’m. I can’t imagine if I go to help him and kick me out after my value is gone. It is so scary!

I remember that Ben told me that he hate people who talks a lie. I start to think how true it is. Because of this case, HE CHEATS ME! One thing he different from Rico is he never make used of me.

The friends who used to so close to you, just turn around they can turn from angel to devil. What can I do in this fallen world. Oh my God! What I can do is just trust to God but no one else. Don’t be emotional anymore, Nicole!

2008, bye bye

The messages which were I have learnt from Pastor Kong Hee. I just like his message so much!

1.) Don’t look back at the OLD SINS that were already forgiven

2.) Don’t look back at the OLD DEFEAT that gets you down.

3.) Don’t look back at the OLD CONFLICTS that make you bitter.

4.) Don’t look back at the OLD VICTORIES and think you have achieved.

OLD SINS
Treat people not from my sincere heart, take everything and God for granted.

OLD DEFEAT
Unable to achieve TEAM LEADERSHIP.

OLD CONFLICTS
Relationship mess out, with Tim and Ben.

OLD VICTORIES
Build team, nearly hit the team leadership criteria.

Lesson of the day:
Don’t nurse it, don’t curse it, don’t rehearse it, release it, and God will dispense it.
Hallelujah!

Thanks God for this wonderful message!