Today, I purposely to go KLCC to buy the shoes I long for. This is the shoes which I want to buy on two months ago. The reason of not purchase it because that time I just quit the job and it is not wise to buy the expensive stuff while you do not have any income. I was sad that the shoes is gone, argh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I can’t find it at other location also.
After that, I went to Kinokuniya to read the books. One of the books I was read is love novel. One of the article is really reflected part of my real life. The female character is self-center, hot temper, love to control, not gentle, and always want to win. (Oops! it is me, my God!) The male character is a very capable person, super attractive and always busy. (Sounds like someone) When they are in the relationship, the male character always late and give empty sweet promise (Whoa! I wonder that she write my story, haha..) In the end, they are broken up. After few years, the female character remains as single and working is her life. (My God, do you know me? Aiyoo.. Is me wo.. ) The male character looks back to her again and wanted to be with her again (Phew.. i know you are not write about me because this is the part did not apply in my life. It is because that guy did not love me at all). Story ended with both of them did not end together. Even though they still love each other but they remain apart.
This is the real life. Most of the people did not spend the rest of their life with the one they love at most. Just like the shoes, once missed it and it is not more.
But, I decided to be different. What I did is I kept telling myself that I definitely can find another shoes which is I love better than this. Life still carry on, we should look forward and not the backward. The moral of story is next time when you saw something you really love, grab it and do not let it go again.
Life is short, we should be thankful to God for every memory in our life. Jesus, I love you!
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
so long
It’s been so long that I did not update my blog. After the service with Pastor Kong, I hope that I can change.
Frankly speaking, I have strong desire not to fall in to love again. For men, once they are broken up, they can turn away totally from you. Next second, they will fall in with another girl. For women, once they are broken up, they still dwell inside and very hard to get out.
My confession is : When you decided not to love me, you can turn aside and fall in love with another girl. You can get married with your love one. My answer is you just simply not love me at all. For me, it takes me a year to forget you. My heart is as hard as ice, can’t open to other people. I know that I’m silly. I chose not to connect you again. However, your unintentionally joke drive me crazy. A love sign means nothing to you. For me, a person who is getting married soon sends a love sign to me. What can I said? Can I call you bloody idiot?
Well, it is passed. I’m fine. I just felt that it is hard for to fall in love again. I don’t know how to love people. I just don’t understand that why love God is so easy but love people is so hard. Human is complicated.
I pray for my next one is love and love me, I just need to felt secure when I’m with him. I think his body must big enough, hahaha…
Frankly speaking, I have strong desire not to fall in to love again. For men, once they are broken up, they can turn away totally from you. Next second, they will fall in with another girl. For women, once they are broken up, they still dwell inside and very hard to get out.
My confession is : When you decided not to love me, you can turn aside and fall in love with another girl. You can get married with your love one. My answer is you just simply not love me at all. For me, it takes me a year to forget you. My heart is as hard as ice, can’t open to other people. I know that I’m silly. I chose not to connect you again. However, your unintentionally joke drive me crazy. A love sign means nothing to you. For me, a person who is getting married soon sends a love sign to me. What can I said? Can I call you bloody idiot?
Well, it is passed. I’m fine. I just felt that it is hard for to fall in love again. I don’t know how to love people. I just don’t understand that why love God is so easy but love people is so hard. Human is complicated.
I pray for my next one is love and love me, I just need to felt secure when I’m with him. I think his body must big enough, hahaha…
Sunday, April 5, 2009
working nicole
Tomorrow is going to be a great day! I will start my new job, haha.. Nothing special about it and it is because Maxis paid me quite high then I just accepted it.
I’ll became a very normal people lor.. I wonder how long I can stand for this kind of job because it is not challenging at all.. haha..
Last Tuesday, we were celebrated Li Pau’s birthday at Chili, KLCC. When we were waiting to be seated, there is a guy also there and he is handsome. There is why he got my attention. Can you imagine that he is waiting for someone without lost his smile, I like it very much. We have a good time together. At the night I was very happy and I laugh like crazy. It is good that we can have a good time with friends.
Last time my friend told me that no one is going to write his real emotion at blog. I still remember that there is someone comment me that “why love here n love there, so the reality who you really love?” The funny thing was that person doesn’t even dare to pen down his real name, so you don’t aspect me to give you a good answer. I just felt it was really funny. There is why people can’t be sincere? There is why people hide their emotion even in his blog? Be true to yourself.
I still remember I mention someone’s name many time especially Tim. He was my past-tense. He was the person who I really pour out my whole heart to love to. Human being is emotional. I still remember that “it only takes you a few seconds to like someone, a few minutes to fall in love, but it takes whole life to forget someone who you love.” It is because I really love him before that is why I will remember him always. He is getting married soon and we are not longer together.
I’ll became a very normal people lor.. I wonder how long I can stand for this kind of job because it is not challenging at all.. haha..
Last Tuesday, we were celebrated Li Pau’s birthday at Chili, KLCC. When we were waiting to be seated, there is a guy also there and he is handsome. There is why he got my attention. Can you imagine that he is waiting for someone without lost his smile, I like it very much. We have a good time together. At the night I was very happy and I laugh like crazy. It is good that we can have a good time with friends.
Last time my friend told me that no one is going to write his real emotion at blog. I still remember that there is someone comment me that “why love here n love there, so the reality who you really love?” The funny thing was that person doesn’t even dare to pen down his real name, so you don’t aspect me to give you a good answer. I just felt it was really funny. There is why people can’t be sincere? There is why people hide their emotion even in his blog? Be true to yourself.
I still remember I mention someone’s name many time especially Tim. He was my past-tense. He was the person who I really pour out my whole heart to love to. Human being is emotional. I still remember that “it only takes you a few seconds to like someone, a few minutes to fall in love, but it takes whole life to forget someone who you love.” It is because I really love him before that is why I will remember him always. He is getting married soon and we are not longer together.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
爱
最近很努力的看木村拓哉主演的日剧，其中的一部是从天而降亿万颗星星，他在剧中是一个恶魔，而女主角对他说了一句话，“就算全世界的人与你为敌，我还是会站在你这里。”
自作孽，不可活。虽然如此，我想如果那个人是木村拓哉，我也是会说一样的话。这也难怪，许多人为情所困，无可救药，明知他不可能给你幸福，你还是会陷进去的。也明知道他是在利用着你，你也会为他不顾一切。然后，当你回首觉得自己很笨，但是如果再来一次，你还是会做回原本的选择，这样未免也太傻了吧。。
虽然，我是一个理智的人，但是我还是一样是个笨女人。除非我不爱你，要不然我也是会为爱奋不顾身。
爱情是一个天大的学问，如果它是一个科目，而现在的我一定是不及格的。与其如此，倒不如把自己搞好，那一天不管是谁都要好好对待他。我的下一个你，我会好好珍惜你的。
自作孽，不可活。虽然如此，我想如果那个人是木村拓哉，我也是会说一样的话。这也难怪，许多人为情所困，无可救药，明知他不可能给你幸福，你还是会陷进去的。也明知道他是在利用着你，你也会为他不顾一切。然后，当你回首觉得自己很笨，但是如果再来一次，你还是会做回原本的选择，这样未免也太傻了吧。。
虽然，我是一个理智的人，但是我还是一样是个笨女人。除非我不爱你，要不然我也是会为爱奋不顾身。
爱情是一个天大的学问，如果它是一个科目，而现在的我一定是不及格的。与其如此，倒不如把自己搞好，那一天不管是谁都要好好对待他。我的下一个你，我会好好珍惜你的。
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
no more holiday
My holiday is ended soon.. I’m going to step into work place again. Right now, my goals and vision is so clear.
Firstly, I’ll work inside Maxis call center. I also do some MLM works. After this, I take some time to learn investment. Regards the product that I’m going to share with you all, I will give you the detail of it as soon as I can.
I will not contact with whoever can affect my emotion. I hate the feeling of care about someone too much. I’m clear about my goals. I’ll put my family as my priority. Every time when I called my mum then I’ll cry. I cried because I did not play my part enough.
Future is filled with uncertainty. I don’t want others to support me. It is because I can’t take it when relationship is turned sour. Just happy to be who I am now..
Firstly, I’ll work inside Maxis call center. I also do some MLM works. After this, I take some time to learn investment. Regards the product that I’m going to share with you all, I will give you the detail of it as soon as I can.
I will not contact with whoever can affect my emotion. I hate the feeling of care about someone too much. I’m clear about my goals. I’ll put my family as my priority. Every time when I called my mum then I’ll cry. I cried because I did not play my part enough.
Future is filled with uncertainty. I don’t want others to support me. It is because I can’t take it when relationship is turned sour. Just happy to be who I am now..
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
情是何物
问世间情为何物，只叫人生死相许？
当一个女生爱到了，她会为他奋不顾身。会为他付出所有的一切， 这包括了金钱，青春，肉体或者更多。 如果你是遇到懂得珍惜你的人，今后可说是一身的福气。反之，你是后者的话，只能感叹遇人不淑。
从友人口中得知关于他的故事。。。故事说着一个女生和一个男生从认识到相爱到冷战。其间男生向女生拿了一次又一次的钱，而女生为了帮自己爱人渡过难关，也都一一付出了所有。连最重要的贞节也付出了。。。但是，她得不到他的回报。他们间中有了第三者，她也彻底崩溃了。。
她开始反思这段情，她付出过的一切，天啊！为什么我付出的得不到正比！她向他摊牌，他只说了他不要分手以及会解决另一个她。但是，一切都只是他的花言巧语。这样的关系就这样持续着。。
因为故事中的主角我都相识，我感到惊奇，这件事都已这么久了而我却浑然不知。一个在你身边了这么久你都不了解他，我觉得知人知面不知心。
最近，我在追看日剧，木村拓哉的“change”， 我也明白了原来认真努力的男人最有魅力，那种积极的态度，朝着自己梦想努力奋斗的人，简直就是一百分！我想只有这样的男子才能深深地吸引着我。这也是我为什么之前我对前任男友放不开的原因吧！我在想如果他已不是那个努力工作的人，我也不会喜欢他了吧！他最感动我的一句话不是什么肉麻的话，而是对不起我因为病了而表现不好，我会做得更好的！我想为你努力奋斗的人远远胜过花言巧语的人吧！
姐姐妹妹们，大家就当心了。不要被爱情冲昏了头，要知道没几个男人是靠得住的，理性的面对另一半的要求，不管是性或者是钱财。要知道到最后不管是好是坏你都要自己承担。
而我亲身经历则是不管是性或者是钱财，我都有我的把关点。不管多爱都好，都要守住自己的贞操，我是一个基督徒，我才不想为了谁而把我的神得罪，我必须负责一切的后果，牧师也说过sex outside the marriage is dirty。金钱虽说是身外物，我的就是我的，所以你欠我的请还回。我讲话很绝，我会把你说到很惨，当然有人是领教了我的厉害，最后乖乖与我合作，谢谢！不是我爱计较，我比较情愿把那笔钱当作奉献也不要再和你有任何瓜葛，这就是我的原则。
当一个女生爱到了，她会为他奋不顾身。会为他付出所有的一切， 这包括了金钱，青春，肉体或者更多。 如果你是遇到懂得珍惜你的人，今后可说是一身的福气。反之，你是后者的话，只能感叹遇人不淑。
从友人口中得知关于他的故事。。。故事说着一个女生和一个男生从认识到相爱到冷战。其间男生向女生拿了一次又一次的钱，而女生为了帮自己爱人渡过难关，也都一一付出了所有。连最重要的贞节也付出了。。。但是，她得不到他的回报。他们间中有了第三者，她也彻底崩溃了。。
她开始反思这段情，她付出过的一切，天啊！为什么我付出的得不到正比！她向他摊牌，他只说了他不要分手以及会解决另一个她。但是，一切都只是他的花言巧语。这样的关系就这样持续着。。
因为故事中的主角我都相识，我感到惊奇，这件事都已这么久了而我却浑然不知。一个在你身边了这么久你都不了解他，我觉得知人知面不知心。
最近，我在追看日剧，木村拓哉的“change”， 我也明白了原来认真努力的男人最有魅力，那种积极的态度，朝着自己梦想努力奋斗的人，简直就是一百分！我想只有这样的男子才能深深地吸引着我。这也是我为什么之前我对前任男友放不开的原因吧！我在想如果他已不是那个努力工作的人，我也不会喜欢他了吧！他最感动我的一句话不是什么肉麻的话，而是对不起我因为病了而表现不好，我会做得更好的！我想为你努力奋斗的人远远胜过花言巧语的人吧！
姐姐妹妹们，大家就当心了。不要被爱情冲昏了头，要知道没几个男人是靠得住的，理性的面对另一半的要求，不管是性或者是钱财。要知道到最后不管是好是坏你都要自己承担。
而我亲身经历则是不管是性或者是钱财，我都有我的把关点。不管多爱都好，都要守住自己的贞操，我是一个基督徒，我才不想为了谁而把我的神得罪，我必须负责一切的后果，牧师也说过sex outside the marriage is dirty。金钱虽说是身外物，我的就是我的，所以你欠我的请还回。我讲话很绝，我会把你说到很惨，当然有人是领教了我的厉害，最后乖乖与我合作，谢谢！不是我爱计较，我比较情愿把那笔钱当作奉献也不要再和你有任何瓜葛，这就是我的原则。
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
work start lor..
My first day at the company is horrible. My company is Investment Company while I don’t have any idea about that. They taught me so many things until my mind was blank. I even felt that my head is pain. Argh!!!!! What they told me make me felt that I very stupid because I don’t have any idea about it.
After a good rest, I think to quit this job. Haha… But, I will not gain anything for there. So, I decided to make a change and I want learn how to do investment. So, I switch from the mood of I hate this job to I love this job. Well, it is just like that and it is done.
But, I felt that blessing from God is so much! I get a lot of job offers. Today, I get offer to work as recruiter for IBM. But, it is located at Cyberjaya so I did not take their offer.
After I back slide for a long time, the only thing I done after I quit the job is go back to church. I attend the service, prayer meeting, cell group meeting and Morning Prayer. I want to slide back to God. Especially, the prayer meeting of today, I felt presence of God is so strong and I begin to visualize so many thing. I think that Christian Life is very important to me.
Now, it is month of March! The agreement between Eunice and me ended soon.. I can start dating with other guys again. Wahaha.. My expectation is very high on my partner. I rather alone than suffer in a relationship.
After a good rest, I think to quit this job. Haha… But, I will not gain anything for there. So, I decided to make a change and I want learn how to do investment. So, I switch from the mood of I hate this job to I love this job. Well, it is just like that and it is done.
But, I felt that blessing from God is so much! I get a lot of job offers. Today, I get offer to work as recruiter for IBM. But, it is located at Cyberjaya so I did not take their offer.
After I back slide for a long time, the only thing I done after I quit the job is go back to church. I attend the service, prayer meeting, cell group meeting and Morning Prayer. I want to slide back to God. Especially, the prayer meeting of today, I felt presence of God is so strong and I begin to visualize so many thing. I think that Christian Life is very important to me.
Now, it is month of March! The agreement between Eunice and me ended soon.. I can start dating with other guys again. Wahaha.. My expectation is very high on my partner. I rather alone than suffer in a relationship.
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