2010

wow... i drop by to update something abt me..
i have so much changes after so long.

first of all, God seems so far to me. i left church and my faith. finally, i realized that the reason that i'm stayed in Christ because i wanted to be attached to the believer. my new goals is i decided to remain single. i hate to beg others to fetch me to church. when there is no purpose, i left.

secondly, all these while i always live for others. since young till my uni life, my life center is my mum. after i got attached, i live for them. after that, i live for God. i never live for myself. i'm doing too little to myself, i start spend more for myself, make myself more healthier.. i joined gym club and travel around.. all because me..

i happy with what i have. i told myself that if i got married, i'll only married to rich guy. yes, i after money.

it's been so long that i did not update my blog. life is good.

since i'm starting work for maxis, i deep into my work again. thanks for my busy work, i don't even have time to think other including you. by this time, you should be very busy prepare your weeding. i don't like to watch movie because after this all i thought is about u.

thanks for pastor Tan and God, i was remind to serve Him again.. great that i transfer into KLCC, i able to do so.

i trully believe i will find someone better than you. God'll provide for me..

baby, bye bye

today is his birthday..
nothing be done..

i told myself from today onwards, he is out of my life.
bye... wish u all the best! happy birthday, baby..

16 june

Today is my birthday. It is absolutely a normal birthday. I don’t have any intention to celebrate it at all.

I think I rewarded my mother and not me. Today is the day I free~~~ yeah! The agreement between lee choo and me ended. I free to fall in love again! Haha…. I think that she is forgetting already.

tuesday

Today, I purposely to go KLCC to buy the shoes I long for. This is the shoes which I want to buy on two months ago. The reason of not purchase it because that time I just quit the job and it is not wise to buy the expensive stuff while you do not have any income. I was sad that the shoes is gone, argh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I can’t find it at other location also.

After that, I went to Kinokuniya to read the books. One of the books I was read is love novel. One of the article is really reflected part of my real life. The female character is self-center, hot temper, love to control, not gentle, and always want to win. (Oops! it is me, my God!) The male character is a very capable person, super attractive and always busy. (Sounds like someone) When they are in the relationship, the male character always late and give empty sweet promise (Whoa! I wonder that she write my story, haha..) In the end, they are broken up. After few years, the female character remains as single and working is her life. (My God, do you know me? Aiyoo.. Is me wo.. ) The male character looks back to her again and wanted to be with her again (Phew.. i know you are not write about me because this is the part did not apply in my life. It is because that guy did not love me at all). Story ended with both of them did not end together. Even though they still love each other but they remain apart.

This is the real life. Most of the people did not spend the rest of their life with the one they love at most. Just like the shoes, once missed it and it is not more.

But, I decided to be different. What I did is I kept telling myself that I definitely can find another shoes which is I love better than this. Life still carry on, we should look forward and not the backward. The moral of story is next time when you saw something you really love, grab it and do not let it go again.

Life is short, we should be thankful to God for every memory in our life. Jesus, I love you!

so long

It’s been so long that I did not update my blog. After the service with Pastor Kong, I hope that I can change.

Frankly speaking, I have strong desire not to fall in to love again. For men, once they are broken up, they can turn away totally from you. Next second, they will fall in with another girl. For women, once they are broken up, they still dwell inside and very hard to get out.

My confession is : When you decided not to love me, you can turn aside and fall in love with another girl. You can get married with your love one. My answer is you just simply not love me at all. For me, it takes me a year to forget you. My heart is as hard as ice, can’t open to other people. I know that I’m silly. I chose not to connect you again. However, your unintentionally joke drive me crazy. A love sign means nothing to you. For me, a person who is getting married soon sends a love sign to me. What can I said? Can I call you bloody idiot?

Well, it is passed. I’m fine. I just felt that it is hard for to fall in love again. I don’t know how to love people. I just don’t understand that why love God is so easy but love people is so hard. Human is complicated.

I pray for my next one is love and love me, I just need to felt secure when I’m with him. I think his body must big enough, hahaha…

working nicole

Tomorrow is going to be a great day! I will start my new job, haha.. Nothing special about it and it is because Maxis paid me quite high then I just accepted it.

I’ll became a very normal people lor.. I wonder how long I can stand for this kind of job because it is not challenging at all.. haha..

Last Tuesday, we were celebrated Li Pau’s birthday at Chili, KLCC. When we were waiting to be seated, there is a guy also there and he is handsome. There is why he got my attention. Can you imagine that he is waiting for someone without lost his smile, I like it very much. We have a good time together. At the night I was very happy and I laugh like crazy. It is good that we can have a good time with friends.

Last time my friend told me that no one is going to write his real emotion at blog. I still remember that there is someone comment me that “why love here n love there, so the reality who you really love?” The funny thing was that person doesn’t even dare to pen down his real name, so you don’t aspect me to give you a good answer. I just felt it was really funny. There is why people can’t be sincere? There is why people hide their emotion even in his blog? Be true to yourself.

I still remember I mention someone’s name many time especially Tim. He was my past-tense. He was the person who I really pour out my whole heart to love to. Human being is emotional. I still remember that “it only takes you a few seconds to like someone, a few minutes to fall in love, but it takes whole life to forget someone who you love.” It is because I really love him before that is why I will remember him always. He is getting married soon and we are not longer together.