right now, i'm in my house which i never step in for past 4 months.
look up to my parent, they still wish that i can quit the job and further my studies. this is the reason why i don't want to back home.
i gave myself deadline already if i can't make it in the half year then i will quit the job. in the end of september, 29/9/2008 my goal is to became team leader! 17/11/2008 is to became assitant owner!
last saturday, i spent more than 3 hour to finish albom minston's book, 5 person you'll meet at the heaven. i was crying when i read until the fourth person. in my heart, the book did not touch me but i really hope that i'm your number fourth person. but, it's impossible. realilty is always cruel.
right now, i'm looking forward to thailand trip. i want to go thailand! one reason because wong chee wai is there, oh my God! he makes me so excited! he is primarly key of my team growing! to be enthusiasm of what you are doing, as the result you will able to attract the group of people to run the vision together with you! wee~~ wee~~ can't wait to meet him again! wahaha!!
FOCUS. forget other commitment unitl success! well, thinking about him makes my life so miserable and i'm nothing to him. focus on the thing that can make me excited is more important! wong chee wai! yeah!
just visit jacob's blog, his blog delights me! thanks bro! i thanks you Father for the wonderful people who i meet in the earth, i cherish what i have! i just love your guys so much!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Thursday, August 14, 2008
my mr J, Jesus, Jack, Jacob n Jeff!
Haha… I really like the feeling of to become high roller!!! This morning I have a small talk with my owner, I decided to change!
All these while, I have been giving myself an excuse of don’t want to do sales. Even though I know that the reason of “do” but I chose not to “do” it. I think human being like to stay in cocoon and don’t dare to make changes.
I also very dislike the feeling of failure. I chose to run away from reality. I pretend I don’t have ability of anything. I think success seems too real to be truth. So I decide to think I’ll be a failure.
Thanks for Jacob, never fail to give me the on time support!
Just now I got an email from Jeff, just like what I expected that he really angry of why I became so negative! Thanks you for him to become my critical friend! Never ever pamper me.
I excited to see myself at the next level! Go for more!
Why I’m so emotional? It is not first time I have this mistake, I pray that I never repeat again! Never forget about Jesus! Thanks my beloved Lord!
All these while, I have been giving myself an excuse of don’t want to do sales. Even though I know that the reason of “do” but I chose not to “do” it. I think human being like to stay in cocoon and don’t dare to make changes.
I also very dislike the feeling of failure. I chose to run away from reality. I pretend I don’t have ability of anything. I think success seems too real to be truth. So I decide to think I’ll be a failure.
Thanks for Jacob, never fail to give me the on time support!
Just now I got an email from Jeff, just like what I expected that he really angry of why I became so negative! Thanks you for him to become my critical friend! Never ever pamper me.
I excited to see myself at the next level! Go for more!
Why I’m so emotional? It is not first time I have this mistake, I pray that I never repeat again! Never forget about Jesus! Thanks my beloved Lord!
Saturday, August 9, 2008
stress..
I strongly need support. Training people is not an easy job. I blame myself for unable to do it well.
Challenge is getting tough. I really need someone who can give me the support whenever I need it.
It was so long that I did not call Jeff at all. Whenever I face any difficulty, he is one of the people I think of. He is one of person can make me to listen to him and follow what he said. I glad that he is always give me the support whenever I need it.
In order to achieve my goal, I have to bounce back as soon as I can. Sometimes, I really felt tired and helpless. In my heart, I know very well that if I can overcome this challenge and it will bring me to another level. Team leader is my reward.
Father, I really need your help, please give me the person who I can rely on.
Challenge is getting tough. I really need someone who can give me the support whenever I need it.
It was so long that I did not call Jeff at all. Whenever I face any difficulty, he is one of the people I think of. He is one of person can make me to listen to him and follow what he said. I glad that he is always give me the support whenever I need it.
In order to achieve my goal, I have to bounce back as soon as I can. Sometimes, I really felt tired and helpless. In my heart, I know very well that if I can overcome this challenge and it will bring me to another level. Team leader is my reward.
Father, I really need your help, please give me the person who I can rely on.
Sunday, August 3, 2008
team leader
My career starts flying. In order to fly high, I really need to change my attitude. I’m going to bring the team to Klang for road trip. Last time I did not manage the team properly and I pray that I do well for this time.
I am aiming for the Thailand Trip! I want to meet and know Chee Wai personally. I know it will be a strong turning point for me.
Once again, I proved that soothsayer cannot be trusted. I still remember my friend said that losing him means that I’ll lost direction. Haha~~ You yourself is a key point for everything!
Within 2 month, I’m going to be team leader! I’m serious about my every step. No time for me to waste! When people is laugh at me because I’m holding “team leader”’s name card, I going to prove to you that I’ll make it!
My heart is excited for every moment! I’m going to see God’s promise came to pass again! God is my strength to move on and no one can take Him away from me!
I am aiming for the Thailand Trip! I want to meet and know Chee Wai personally. I know it will be a strong turning point for me.
Once again, I proved that soothsayer cannot be trusted. I still remember my friend said that losing him means that I’ll lost direction. Haha~~ You yourself is a key point for everything!
Within 2 month, I’m going to be team leader! I’m serious about my every step. No time for me to waste! When people is laugh at me because I’m holding “team leader”’s name card, I going to prove to you that I’ll make it!
My heart is excited for every moment! I’m going to see God’s promise came to pass again! God is my strength to move on and no one can take Him away from me!
Saturday, July 26, 2008
rally
Yesterday was rally. I’m so happy that I get leadership award! But after saw that he was with another girl, I was so sad.
I understand very well that I can’t be with him. I know very well that God always is my final decision. I can’t act according to my own will again. I scared that I will lose God again. It is just a matter of time.
In next one year, I will not step into any relationship. This is promise that I have to keep it. I need to fight for my career. What kind of lifestyle I will have in the future is what decision that I have on today.
Purpose of driven written by Rick Warren really delights me. I found out that I use my own strength to make all the things happen is so hard. Without God, I just nothing.
One of the best thing in the rally, I took photo together with Wong Chin Wai! He is my dream guy. Haha.. it is just a dream. :p
My conclusion is I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me!
I understand very well that I can’t be with him. I know very well that God always is my final decision. I can’t act according to my own will again. I scared that I will lose God again. It is just a matter of time.
In next one year, I will not step into any relationship. This is promise that I have to keep it. I need to fight for my career. What kind of lifestyle I will have in the future is what decision that I have on today.
Purpose of driven written by Rick Warren really delights me. I found out that I use my own strength to make all the things happen is so hard. Without God, I just nothing.
One of the best thing in the rally, I took photo together with Wong Chin Wai! He is my dream guy. Haha.. it is just a dream. :p
My conclusion is I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me!
pass is pass
Today is a disappointment day. As a usual, you did not respond to my call.
A person who you think is a friend but actually is not. My heart is hurt. Finally, I understand that why Tim said I’m only one he has in here. A friend used to give you comfort whenever you need and been through tough time together will suddenly became stranger just like that. I’m crying for reality.
I wish I can do more for God now. God is the only I can trust.
A person who you think is a friend but actually is not. My heart is hurt. Finally, I understand that why Tim said I’m only one he has in here. A friend used to give you comfort whenever you need and been through tough time together will suddenly became stranger just like that. I’m crying for reality.
I wish I can do more for God now. God is the only I can trust.
Thanks God for every blessing! Thanks for I able restore back the relationship with Tim as friend. I think that this is a best way for both of us.
I love his smile. It was so genuine because it came from his heart. It is so real. Nothing can compare with it! We did not talk with each other for a long time. We have so many misunderstanding between each other. I glad that we manage to clear it all. To be frank and honest, I hate the feeling of no response from him. I send him a sms or call him but he did not response to me at all. I’m scare.
While I was on my way to go back home today, Emmy was calling me. After that, I was sitting on the stair and I have no intention to go back to my room. This is reason why I’m here and writing my blog.
I don’t have the reason to go back. Today, I was not me at all. I lost my direction. I wanted to change the job, change the people I met and change everything. Maybe, I will not keep in touch with anyone I know anymore. I need a brand new start place. Kuala Lumpur maybe is not my choice anymore. My heart is tired. It is dead for whole day.
I love his smile. It was so genuine because it came from his heart. It is so real. Nothing can compare with it! We did not talk with each other for a long time. We have so many misunderstanding between each other. I glad that we manage to clear it all. To be frank and honest, I hate the feeling of no response from him. I send him a sms or call him but he did not response to me at all. I’m scare.
While I was on my way to go back home today, Emmy was calling me. After that, I was sitting on the stair and I have no intention to go back to my room. This is reason why I’m here and writing my blog.
I don’t have the reason to go back. Today, I was not me at all. I lost my direction. I wanted to change the job, change the people I met and change everything. Maybe, I will not keep in touch with anyone I know anymore. I need a brand new start place. Kuala Lumpur maybe is not my choice anymore. My heart is tired. It is dead for whole day.
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