看了小燕姐的节目，就好像妈妈教女儿做人的道理，一针见血。

女人就是很奇怪，都不喜欢对她好的。偏偏就喜欢对她不好的，折磨她的。

Haih.. This is how myke treat me. Bad, bad and bad!!
If he free then I'm human. If he is not free then I'm the air. Why I make myself so cheap?

Tension mood on! Why I see everyone look like Myke?! My heartbeat turn fast. Dislike this feeling..

喜欢myke已经到了破表的指数，但我又需要面对的是他一点都不喜欢我的事实。

以前是想也不敢想，现在就尽量去想，反正又不用给钱。哈哈。。

On thursday, went to elva's dance class. Myke was came as well. damn, totally distress by him. I can't focus at all. He stand behind of me

Today, I went to elva's class again And he was there as well. when he came in and saw me, I just look at him only. He try to use the bottle to touch me to said hello to me. We are not talking at all. can consider he stand beside of me.

When elva play the song "stand by me", this is my message to him. Oh, darling darling stand by me, oh stand by me.... On thursday, totally can't dance. Today, I just thank God fulfill my wish. This is more than enough. He just stand beside me.

I just told myself that he is not a christian, not God wants. he is not interest on me as well. Alvin can make me stay closer with God, he is the one. But I don't know when can meet him.

I really love Myke. He always can make me not Nicole, totally lost control. But he definitely not the choice fr God. I need obey God coz the outcome always He win, I lost

Well, the drama makes me sad. Whenever thought about ending, I felt want to cry.

When the moment start work, I felt so happy without any reason. Laugh for no reason. Haha..

I forget to bring shoes. I asked myke isn't ok bare foot for body combat but he didn't reply me. Before the class start, he said I can't wear like that. Pretend to be serious but I didn't scare him at all.

before went back, I met him. Unfortunately he saw me, he purposely walk very slow to wait for me. I hv no choice to walk to me. He talk a lot to me but I hv no idea what he said. I didn't pay attention coz I too tired.

Before went back, saw the instructor .. Happy happy..

Hmm.. I hv no much feeling towards them after I dream about alvin. Alvin, hope that see u soon

I have move to CM team. I went back to Sunway office. Start to a normal life, ph and weekend belong to me..

看完步步惊心后，难以抽离。我可以遇到我的四爷吧！打电话问妈妈和妹妹近况。真的很伤心，很难抽离。大家都不知我很伤心和哭。让我想到tim,我的一句hello,他都知道我在哭。 不知还可不可以像他那样懂我的人。

I'm an emotional person, I'm sad because the one I love not came to my life. Learnt to trust God for everything

Since then think that Alvin is the one, I found myself no interest with other guy.

I hv no idea how can I meet him. I'm not sure why I think is him. I put my trust in God..

见证神迹时刻