2009

What a super bored day!! I trapped in the office and done some admin stuff. I guess that I’m not suitable for office job.

For the past 1 month, my life is extremely down. I lost Rico and Ben at the same time. Due to some conflict, they are not work with me anymore. I upset about it. I even cry for it. I understand that the reality is cruel and I decided to let it go. I’ll be fine.

When Rico’s birthday, I called him and greet him. I very disappointed with what he said. He thought that the reason I called him because I’m lonely. After that, he knows that I’m doing quite well in event, he try to source out the information about how I’m doing. Well, its fine and I don’t mind to give him some guide. But, the way he asked me and make me felt totally disappointed. His intention is make used of me is my conclusion.

I never forget that the way of how he talks to me in out last conversation. Just less than a month, he has changed so much. I glad that I have make a right choice by stay where I’m. I can’t imagine if I go to help him and kick me out after my value is gone. It is so scary!

I remember that Ben told me that he hate people who talks a lie. I start to think how true it is. Because of this case, HE CHEATS ME! One thing he different from Rico is he never make used of me.

The friends who used to so close to you, just turn around they can turn from angel to devil. What can I do in this fallen world. Oh my God! What I can do is just trust to God but no one else. Don’t be emotional anymore, Nicole!