let go

ahem.. when i thought that it is very hard to let tim go. in fact, i'm the main reason for that.

when i watched a drama, if u really want to let go something even thought 1 second, u are able to do so. i delight by that. goodbye my past, u're welcome-> my present!

at the same time, my heart seems cling to someone else. he is aaron ang. my god!!!! when i know that he might go to oversea to further his studies. for no reason, i'm so sad. last time, when i knew that he was after other girls, my heart sink into the deep sea.

i lost interest for all the thing include God. since there is no possible between us, i left God n church. isn't too much disapoitment or him, i'm not very sure.

to him, i just normal person. he might forget who am i.

to me, i just can't figure out that why his impact to me is so high. -_-

i think that there is one thing that will never change.

nothing gonna change my love for you.. tim

but i'll keep you in my heart safely.

2010

wow... i drop by to update something abt me..
i have so much changes after so long.

first of all, God seems so far to me. i left church and my faith. finally, i realized that the reason that i'm stayed in Christ because i wanted to be attached to the believer. my new goals is i decided to remain single. i hate to beg others to fetch me to church. when there is no purpose, i left.

secondly, all these while i always live for others. since young till my uni life, my life center is my mum. after i got attached, i live for them. after that, i live for God. i never live for myself. i'm doing too little to myself, i start spend more for myself, make myself more healthier.. i joined gym club and travel around.. all because me..

i happy with what i have. i told myself that if i got married, i'll only married to rich guy. yes, i after money.