After update my blog and I realised that I forget about Ronnie. Maybe my focus on Myke only.

We have birthday celebration on Thursday. Well, I decided to served the food because it's my act to show I appreciate for what was done.

When I gave the food to Ronnie, he asked me give to Naga. After this, Navin asked me why never give food to Ronnie then I answered he don't want. Ronnie add: stop giving the trouble.

After this, Naga said: Nicole, u never give food to Ronnie. U know guy very sensitive, he is sad. How ar?
I answer next time got anything, I give him first. Ronnie quiet a short while then he said something but I forget ady..

Damn.. my life is so blank.. everything is empty. Oh God!

I heard a song " broken angel ". Can angel be broken? I don't know but I know I'm broken.
I so looney broken angel, I so looney broken angel..........

Bet start.. I have adjust myself that I really like Myke so much till he can felt it.

In fact, I like him but not until extend that is very much. Yesterday I'm going Jaze's class. Well, his class but I'm so sad that he is not Myke. Where ar u, Myke????

After workout too much, my stomach pain. I keep thinking about Myke. Myke oh Myke, can u be my bf faster so that we can finish faster as well.

Out of playful, I bet with my sister that I'll get Myke became my boyfriend.. then my elder sister said I will lose.

haiyoo.. bakar like this way. I hv no idea how to do. jusr believe and do it. eventually u can get what you want..

Yesterday was my birthday, I spend it alone

When I went to secret recipe for lunch, there's another table celebrate bday..but I'm alone. Suddenly felt want to cry and looney..:(

I wish to get bday wish fr Deno, Myke and Ronnie but I get it none..

Oh Lord, I really hate to celebrate alone. Can somebody(my bf) celebrate my 2012 bday together..

I think I need to start to understand Ronnie first.

At first, I thought he is like my father. A quiet guy who can give me comfortable feeling. After this, I found he like hot and sexy girl. Then found out he is not quiet person I think. The feeling is so bad. Haih..

Thought that Myke will conduct the class as normal after saw him last week. The answer is NOT!

I seriously regret not to ask where he has been all this while, argh~~~~~~~~~~

Hin Tong's class full of motivation! I will stop go to Sandy's class since I can't enjoy her class that much. From now on, will go to Hin Tong's class. He keep mention: stop complaint. Don't be afraid. Just do it. Seems like I should quickly go for Myke before I want settle myself down with another person. Haha..

my sis said that Deno is not a gay and he just sissy only. she mention that Myke is 100% man and he is a good looking guy.

when I get to know him, he is a lazy person, irresponsible, stubborn.. just like me. my sis said Deno more suitable for me. but I prefer to go Myke, I hv no plan to hv long relationship wf him. I just want to have beautiful love wf him before I ready to get married. no burden, stress free love.

When I found out that she just another one who love Myke crazy, ok it's interesting.

How about I close with Myke and take some 'special' photo, I think I'll drive some people crazy. Don't worry I won't take it seriously wf Myke. Ppl like him who is irresponsible and I wouldn't hv much interest. If just happen he became my bf, we can't last more than 3 months.

I can sense his loneliness just what I experience right now.. that's y I want to understand him more. Maybe we can be a friend who can support each other. Seriously, I understand the bitterness.

After root canal treatment, I went to gym coz I don't want to stay at house as dead men

Totally I felt numb, I can't talk, smile.. I sit and wait for the class. Suddenly Myke appear in front me. But I can't talk to him coz I can't talk at all.

After I add Deno as friend. Out of curiosity, I checked his photo. All Myke's photo tag under a girl. Maybe, she is his gf. But I hv not much special feeling.

Haha.. felt life is good.. what I want I'll get it except love..

Story begin with Myke continue not to turn out for the class. I have no one to focus so I focus on Ronnie since he is new to our dept and sit right behind of me.

Everynight I dream about him. He is the one make me want to settle down. Even we are never talk to each other, I enjoy this silent. He make me felt comfortable.

Things didn't turn out well. I found out that he just treat me as a little girl and he acted like my father. He just older than me older 5 years old, y he can act this way? The way he treat me like I'm immature people. I felt disappointed!

So, as I wish. I need not turn out for futsal event. Navin asked either khoo or me not turn out. Of course, I happy be the one since none of my friend will go. His reaction is why u don't want to go? Helo, suppose u should be happy that I'm not going

Myke still didn't came back.. huhu.. I wonder where he goes, it been more than 1 month..

Zumba class by Sandy is kind of disappointed! Her teaching style still did not improved. I wonder why can so different. Same dance teach by Myke and Deno, both are excellent. Same dance by Sandy and Deno or Myke, why Sandy give me the feeling that she is not good at teaching.

Haiyoo, it would be good that Myke can take back the class. :( if can't, at least get someone to replace her is better.

Deeply felt that I dislike human world. only Myke perhaps Deno make me felt that I can stay.

How wish that my life is face mother nature only, nothing else more than that.

Today is my rest day.. I really rest in my house.

Look at one movie, 非诚勿扰. Let me have time think about Ronnie. Well, if he is single definitely will think of me. I can see he proudly to show me that we have common interest which is go to gym.

Hopefully I'm the one think too much.

Tmr is Friday again. I hate to go to gym and felt disappointed that Myke is not there. Myke o Myke, u are too much! One month ady, can u be there tomorrow? I'm sad, sad sad.....

Will find time go back to mother nature to recharge myself. Can someone accompany me, pls?