我做了史上最白痴的事，看katak 看到撞门，结果撞到流鼻血！！

医师都吓到了。还好并不是很严重。整个人很慌糊。
搞什么吗，下次一定会小心。

少过一个月，我学着努力放弃myke. 他太幼稚了，无理取闹，没空理他。我们已不理会对方。 而我继续上他的课，但我们不会再有交集。这样真的很好。

哈哈，他剪头发真的好看。好久没遇到，我打喷嚏就看到他，就觉得他好眼熟，他剪头发了。吃饱了，起身离开真好和他对着，他有点不知所措，慌忙逃开我的视线，超可爱！

原来男生对我感觉都是把我当妹妹，所以对我好。所以，myke也觉得我是妹妹，可他对我一点都不好

看了小燕姐的节目，就好像妈妈教女儿做人的道理，一针见血。

女人就是很奇怪，都不喜欢对她好的。偏偏就喜欢对她不好的，折磨她的。

Haih.. This is how myke treat me. Bad, bad and bad!!
If he free then I'm human. If he is not free then I'm the air. Why I make myself so cheap?

Tension mood on! Why I see everyone look like Myke?! My heartbeat turn fast. Dislike this feeling..

喜欢myke已经到了破表的指数，但我又需要面对的是他一点都不喜欢我的事实。

以前是想也不敢想，现在就尽量去想，反正又不用给钱。哈哈。。

On thursday, went to elva's dance class. Myke was came as well. damn, totally distress by him. I can't focus at all. He stand behind of me

Today, I went to elva's class again And he was there as well. when he came in and saw me, I just look at him only. He try to use the bottle to touch me to said hello to me. We are not talking at all. can consider he stand beside of me.

When elva play the song "stand by me", this is my message to him. Oh, darling darling stand by me, oh stand by me.... On thursday, totally can't dance. Today, I just thank God fulfill my wish. This is more than enough. He just stand beside me.

I just told myself that he is not a christian, not God wants. he is not interest on me as well. Alvin can make me stay closer with God, he is the one. But I don't know when can meet him.

I really love Myke. He always can make me not Nicole, totally lost control. But he definitely not the choice fr God. I need obey God coz the outcome always He win, I lost