2007

Wow! 2008 just around the corner!

2007 has become another memory for me. Thank for 2007, I truly experience a lot!

I have face dramatically changes from student to working adult and also from single get into love relationship and back to single again.

Well, I enjoy my single status and I still don’t know how balance my life with another person. Yes, I think I’m selfish and I don’t want sacrife for everyone’ sake. I can’t cope with lifestyle like that.

I still love Jerry but it does not mean that I will reconcile with him again. I think he also doesn’t want. Sometimes, my heart will still pain whenever think about him but I believe God will heal and cure.

To love Jerry,
Sometimes, I don’t understand why you purposely want to hurt me. In front of me, you called other girl as your wife and have close relationship with another girl. I don’t understand why you do so. I think you want me to give up you completely. When every time you do so, it does drive me crazy and I want explore! But I still maintain my attitude and cry back behind you.

I think my friend is right, I’m so fake in front of you. I think you also. Why we end up like this? Why we keep hurting each other?

I truly thank God for delight me! I don’t keep hatred in my heart and I don’t want to blame anyone. God teach me a lesson which is let go and still love.

When the moment I chose forgive and forget, my heart does not pain again for the moment. I found out the greatest love in this world is love of God to me.

I still love you my lao gong, Jerry. But let us not to hurt each other again. I know I lost you forever already. Don’t worry, no matter what happen I won’t go back to you again. I respect your decision.

Everything is happen by choice and not by chance. My choice is still remain let you go and your choice is our relationship should not go on. Alright, let us stick the choice that we already make. Maybe we are not mean to be together.