Today is a final day.

I clean up my room. As chat wf syidah, she inform TL in digi salary can up to 4k. God, if I got it and I hv no reason to stay in maxis. I freaking suffer hard wf salary given.. I think I will take it seriously to look for other job.

Finally, I understand y Ronnie is not for me. God has his plan for me. I release wf answer given.

I so tension that my ptptn can't be paid faster n I can't realise my plan to buy a car and house. I need a job can give me salary more.

When one of my colleague was asked to move other dept, I scare and my turn coming soon. I forget God is always wf u, and I should put all my trust to Him.

Last 2 days..

Learnt to be strong.. coz the guy I like all don't like me

Count down for last 3 days. After this, I'll treat Ronnie as my superior.

I believe that if guy interest on u, he'll take action. But, he didn't anything.
So I hv set the time, I just move on

Recently I hv strong desire to quit maxis. Why should I let others decided where should I go..

seriously i became super stupid when deal with Ronnie.
sunday, when i went back. he speak to me " balik rumah tidur" at lift of office. when i about to board to LRT then i only realized what he spoke to me.
yesterday, he asked a simple question whether my friend turn out for work. i can't answer.he need elaborate his question eg: when she said hi with me, did you talk to her, bla.. after this, i only answer his question. OMG!
nicole, nicole.. pls wake up. remaining 5 days your dreams will gone!

好想逃避一切。。 找个人嫁算了，可谁要娶我哦?

我得了痴心妄想症，谁可以救我?

Jesus is my virtue
Ronnie is the demon I cling to, l cling

I just a holy fool, oh baby. He is so cruel but I'm still in love with Ronnie, baby.

Step in July, it's not a good month for love. But its good month to work.

Myke- I decided focus him as my instructor.
Ronnie- I can't figure out him. Treat him as my superior will be better. Maybe he has someone else. I don't understand why I show him that my sad look. Look at him quietly will be better

Let me shut the love down until someone can unsealed it.

My life is with family, work, friend, and...... sea

After never see him for 4 days. Finally can meet him on Friday.. when just left 2 of us, I have special feeling. I can't described how I felt. This is the feeling I never felt before. I wonder if Ronnie still same feeling or not.

I felt bad because I skipped Deno's class. Luckily today I can go. If he never look at me on Thursday, I will felt it's ok not to attend his class. His eye full with message.. I will try not to do it again. I felt that I did the bad thing. Just now He went to close the door and found that I was abt to go to his class, he let the door open. We smile to each other.

I know something wrong on me.. I love workout till no energy left. Like the feeling sweating like crazy. Love to run non stop. Use this way to release out all my loneliness, frustration, stress and forget all my trouble.

I'm in dilemma whether went to gym or not. When I posted on celebrity wall, Nicholas ting reply me and I surprise that he went for Felix's class as well. Well, his reply like want me to go to gym. I felt reluctant to go. In the end, I missed out Deno's class. I was running around 20 minutes. Seriously l felt Deno won't felt anything.

I did saw Nicholas in the class but we did not talk coz we are sit too far away. Anyway we just stranger. When I and my friend ( poh ling ) walk back to ladies, I felt an eyes is look at me. Oops, Deno was there. Sorry, will try my best to go ur class on this week. Forgive me, Myke has make me lost my mind. I need time to recover

New schedule is out.. Myke will not conduct class in mid valley. I felt so frustrated. He just left 3 class is sunway.
What happen? Seriously don't know.

Today I went for his class. When I asked him ' where hv u been? ' he reply is not relate at all ' ok, oklor ' and smile. In my heart, u didn't answer my question!? He asked me ' how abt u? So free today? ' I just reply 'today not working, that's y I'm here.

Seriously felt sucks! I tell myself that I'll confirm lost the bet coz I'm not going to after him. I didn't felt anything and release. Maybe I really not into him. After so long, he lost the weight and turned old.

There is a stranger like to said hi to me. After so long for night shift, I met him again. He purposely waive down the windows and good morning to me. And I lazy to entertain him. After this, he stop the car and wait me in front. And I walk to different direction.

He is too old for me even he is rich (who care?) I lazy to entertain him again.

And I focus on listen to my heart to understand what I really want.. Myke will be my instructor from now on.. I don't want further this if God this is the best for me.. force ur heart to do something is not a good practice..