Ear having infection. Very painful cant sleep. Just came back from clinic. Will be a bit late to find u to buy uncle lee gift. Message fr jacky, seriously I don't felt touch at all.. Even he is sick but still want fetch me to go out.. We ar go out very frequent recently.. We wil dinner together and go to seaside. But we can't became couple his health condition is not very good and that was in my mind early on.. He want to marry a girl who doesn't a kid.. My answer is NO.. Even I'm single now but if I get married then I must hv my child. At least 3.. We were so different , religion and point of view.. Just because of loneliness, we are together..

yin sin,终于看清她的真面目。thank God! 原来我都不认识她。一场旅行交换真的值得。自从她交了男友就完全凸显她的真面目，大家都爱你，你最适合做良家妇女和做老婆，男人女人都被你骗到团团转，恭喜你。 我出游必有计划，没有计划的行程让我感到没有安全感。你真心说出我们很随兴，你要怎样就怎样。交通自行解决。知道你教了男友了不起，范不着一副让人看了十分不爽，我要不是碍于邀了另一个朋友同行，本小姐为顾及大局肯定放你飞机。 好了，就和另一个朋友搭巴士去。最终，有两辆车上，就麻烦做你男友的车，你却一副我哀求你的样子，我也开口回应如果你们要两人世界我们可以不要打扰。你才意识你的真面目要露陷，感快改变态度。老姐我记住了，我已经知道你这个人我们就变回表面朋友，本人不会跟你有任何交集。

我和jacky 感觉很奇怪。 每当靠近他时心就有漏一拍的感觉。 最近，他对我太温柔到我招架不了。 又不停试探我的感情状况。。 如果他向我告白，我真不知该怎样？！ 现在只好催眠自己一切都是我想太多什么事还是一样

Now, I really don't want to hv any relationship. myke, I hv complete give up because he has became a gay... Omg! I go stop his class sms don't want to see him. Recently, jacky show his interest on me but I hv turned him down. All this whole I thought that I'm looking for love, jacky make me understand that I don't need it anyway Maybe he is not the one or I don't need anyone stranger, I seriously felt he is so cute. He so caring till block life door until I safely went in. I felt so touch. But we will remains as stranger just because he did not like me enough to hv a courage to know me

I never knew that I love him that much till he can affect me. When I saw myke with her, I totally out of control. I frustrated til don't bother him. I felt unloved and hurt. 当我回家，妈妈第一句话竟是我和sofia爸爸聊天，我们希望你们能在一起。sofia哥哥，这个人完全和我没焦急，God. isn't from you? 不过，还真希望是他。我肯定会定下来。她爸爸只是希望儿子有个伴，并没有什么计划，不过他人在纽西兰，他完完就是我要的那个人，而他对我的看法就不知。 回想一下，我信主还真感谢sofia.

I start to get used life without myke. After maxis center incident, we are became stranger. I can't stand people like him totally unreasonable.

Well, when he lost iphone 3gs, I told him that our center has ready stock. Unfortunately, he need wait for around 1 hour for his new iphone 4s. He released his frustration to me. My company not equal to me! Then I do apologize to him but he ignore me. Damn it, I start to felt irritating. The best way to keep myself from trouble again is ignore him. We start to ignore each other. I still go his class like normal but we acted like stranger. From now on, he is my instructor in the class. That's all. I think it's best way for us.

He is the one start it and I won't take any initiative to save our relationship. Don't think that you are the one I love then you can do anything you like. I will stay away trouble person like you. Bye bye Myke, I have to let go.

I will make sure make myself available for other guy. When I'm in love with other guy, I will hit you hard. But, you are the one asked for it.

我做了史上最白痴的事，看katak 看到撞门，结果撞到流鼻血！！

医师都吓到了。还好并不是很严重。整个人很慌糊。
搞什么吗，下次一定会小心。

少过一个月，我学着努力放弃myke. 他太幼稚了，无理取闹，没空理他。我们已不理会对方。 而我继续上他的课，但我们不会再有交集。这样真的很好。

哈哈，他剪头发真的好看。好久没遇到，我打喷嚏就看到他，就觉得他好眼熟，他剪头发了。吃饱了，起身离开真好和他对着，他有点不知所措，慌忙逃开我的视线，超可爱！

原来男生对我感觉都是把我当妹妹，所以对我好。所以，myke也觉得我是妹妹，可他对我一点都不好

看了小燕姐的节目，就好像妈妈教女儿做人的道理，一针见血。

女人就是很奇怪，都不喜欢对她好的。偏偏就喜欢对她不好的，折磨她的。

Haih.. This is how myke treat me. Bad, bad and bad!!
If he free then I'm human. If he is not free then I'm the air. Why I make myself so cheap?

Tension mood on! Why I see everyone look like Myke?! My heartbeat turn fast. Dislike this feeling..

喜欢myke已经到了破表的指数，但我又需要面对的是他一点都不喜欢我的事实。

以前是想也不敢想，现在就尽量去想，反正又不用给钱。哈哈。。

On thursday, went to elva's dance class. Myke was came as well. damn, totally distress by him. I can't focus at all. He stand behind of me

Today, I went to elva's class again And he was there as well. when he came in and saw me, I just look at him only. He try to use the bottle to touch me to said hello to me. We are not talking at all. can consider he stand beside of me.

When elva play the song "stand by me", this is my message to him. Oh, darling darling stand by me, oh stand by me.... On thursday, totally can't dance. Today, I just thank God fulfill my wish. This is more than enough. He just stand beside me.

I just told myself that he is not a christian, not God wants. he is not interest on me as well. Alvin can make me stay closer with God, he is the one. But I don't know when can meet him.

I really love Myke. He always can make me not Nicole, totally lost control. But he definitely not the choice fr God. I need obey God coz the outcome always He win, I lost

Well, the drama makes me sad. Whenever thought about ending, I felt want to cry.

When the moment start work, I felt so happy without any reason. Laugh for no reason. Haha..

I forget to bring shoes. I asked myke isn't ok bare foot for body combat but he didn't reply me. Before the class start, he said I can't wear like that. Pretend to be serious but I didn't scare him at all.

before went back, I met him. Unfortunately he saw me, he purposely walk very slow to wait for me. I hv no choice to walk to me. He talk a lot to me but I hv no idea what he said. I didn't pay attention coz I too tired.

Before went back, saw the instructor .. Happy happy..

Hmm.. I hv no much feeling towards them after I dream about alvin. Alvin, hope that see u soon

I have move to CM team. I went back to Sunway office. Start to a normal life, ph and weekend belong to me..

看完步步惊心后，难以抽离。我可以遇到我的四爷吧！打电话问妈妈和妹妹近况。真的很伤心，很难抽离。大家都不知我很伤心和哭。让我想到tim,我的一句hello,他都知道我在哭。 不知还可不可以像他那样懂我的人。

I'm an emotional person, I'm sad because the one I love not came to my life. Learnt to trust God for everything

Since then think that Alvin is the one, I found myself no interest with other guy.

I hv no idea how can I meet him. I'm not sure why I think is him. I put my trust in God..

见证神迹时刻

Really long time never update my blog. Life is busy.

Story begins when I dream about someone who I never see for a long time. Hmm.. His name is Alvin. Used to be see him often during my secondary school because our tuition teachers are same. however we never talk to each other.
I met him back when I'm in university and he visit my church during his summer break.we have a small talk, added him in my friendster and get to know that he finished studies in Australia.

These few days listen to hillsong united's song and keep tell myself my 四爷 wil come to me soon. I dream about him and he is mine. Today I miss him like crazy. I tell God it's him and he is the one. How we meet again? I have no idea. Not only want to meet him, I want to be with him. I gone mad!

now I'll keep him in my prayer