Well, this is another Friday. It means that I have to meet Tim again. It is a very tough job.
While he is running leader’s meeting, I don’t even look at him. But, I still write down whatever he said because it was meaningful. I just thought that so many people and he will not notice me.
I felt that he is just another people in Cobra for me. It is better that we have a better business relationship. So, I talk to him like normal. He told me that I did not paid attention while he was running the meeting, and then I just showed him that I wrote down whatever he said. Phew.. haha.. you can’t catch me. When he was talking to me, I asked myself this question whether I have feeling to kiss this guy again. The answer is no and just think that he is Ben. I miss Ben.
After that, he calls me that he was having lunch with his fiancée. Well, my heart is pain. But, I still remain cool and inform him that just let me know when you are getting married. I don’t really know his intention. For me, I try to calm myself and told myself that I just normal person to him. Right now, I still felt very angry because Tim is the shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit person who can affect my feeling. %$%^%#*&$#$#@Q@#
If you asked me that who is more important to me, I think that I like Tim more than Ben.
I need Ben more than Tim. But, I lost both of them because they are not belong to me. I think that career is more important to me. Right now, I felt disappointed on Tim and Ben felt disappointed on me. It is stupid circle. It is ends now because I don’t want to make myself suffer again. Bye bye, stupid Tim!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
shit people = sk
Fail to be a good leader for the past few days. The shit thing happens again. I should not go to meet the people who are negative. Sorry, my beloved guys! Your leader is coming back on tomorrow. Yeah!
SK is the person who I need to keep distance. She is the one who ask me to quit the job and the same time asked me to pay for sing K. funny! Sorry, I don’t want to be like you who are money is not enough. Please be realistic, look at your situation and I think you better take care yourself more.
She even said how bad Ben was. Well, in this world I don’t think there will be a perfect person. I understand he is not a good guy but I don’t really care. I only know when I felt down and I need support he is there. While I was crying, he is there. He always understands me very well.
In my heart, I really need to thanks Chia! He always is there for me to help to solve my problem.
My conclusion is stay away from the person who thinks themselves very good. When they are know that they are failure and they will push someone down together. When I success, I’ll never forget how you look down on me. I hate the people who are enjoying watch other people’s fall. I never was going to meet her again. Really shit people!
SK is the person who I need to keep distance. She is the one who ask me to quit the job and the same time asked me to pay for sing K. funny! Sorry, I don’t want to be like you who are money is not enough. Please be realistic, look at your situation and I think you better take care yourself more.
She even said how bad Ben was. Well, in this world I don’t think there will be a perfect person. I understand he is not a good guy but I don’t really care. I only know when I felt down and I need support he is there. While I was crying, he is there. He always understands me very well.
In my heart, I really need to thanks Chia! He always is there for me to help to solve my problem.
My conclusion is stay away from the person who thinks themselves very good. When they are know that they are failure and they will push someone down together. When I success, I’ll never forget how you look down on me. I hate the people who are enjoying watch other people’s fall. I never was going to meet her again. Really shit people!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
y like that?
Well, it’s extremely bad day after meet Tim! I hope that I will not meet him again. But, it is impossible. Purposely act like don’t bother him but in the end I’m the one who sad. I think Ben detect my emotion faster than me.
I never know that he can create such huge impact on me. I found out that I not understand myself at all.
Sorry, Ben. I know that you are sad. Tim still very important to me.
I never know that he can create such huge impact on me. I found out that I not understand myself at all.
Sorry, Ben. I know that you are sad. Tim still very important to me.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
time is near
Time is flies.. Deadline is near.
I stuck in my career. I don’t want to fall in love for this moment. I love Ben but I chose to be his good friend. His unfailing support makes me touch. Just like Tim, before that he always there for me, but after anything we are become stranger. I don’t want to lose anyone again. The best thing is we are best friend, not expectation from each other, no pressure and no commitment.
Now, I am getting tough. Call from Ben makes me cry again. Truly, I’m having him in my life is more than enough. Ben, thanks for everything!
I stuck in my career. I don’t want to fall in love for this moment. I love Ben but I chose to be his good friend. His unfailing support makes me touch. Just like Tim, before that he always there for me, but after anything we are become stranger. I don’t want to lose anyone again. The best thing is we are best friend, not expectation from each other, no pressure and no commitment.
Now, I am getting tough. Call from Ben makes me cry again. Truly, I’m having him in my life is more than enough. Ben, thanks for everything!
Monday, October 20, 2008
i'm back
Ha.. finally I got time to blog blog blog.
Well, since this is my personal blog, I’m going express the real me. So, I don’t really care who the one read my blog are. Well, the story begun when I sign in to the MSN, out of curious I chat with someone then found out she is one of church member. She tries to follow up me, PLEASE! I really appreciate her but she doesn’t know my story.
The story is I don’t like my cg, I can’t felt the love and also sense of belongingness. I really hate the situation that when I really put my effort to attend the event of night and I always have problem that no one is willing to fetch me back. Due to my work, if I want to go back early then I have really worked my day out to make sure that it happened. The outcome really upset me. I still remember that when I make an effort to attend the night event, when the time is going back they are pushing each other to fetch me back. I very frustrated then shout out; you all just need to drop me to Sunway Pyramid then I’ll find my way back. Then they just fetch me back unwillingly. Since then, I told myself that I’ll never put myself that kind of situation which it really embarrassed me. I really felt super frustrated! I need to left my team behind and I felt that I’m burden for my church member. It really lose-lose situation. Might as well that I focus on my career more and put all attention to my team who are benefit me more.
Lunch section is even worse; I think that it is better than I skip all. Same thing happen, transportation problem. I can’t imagine that you can ask people how to go back without any solution. If don’t have it, please do not ask. I rather spend my time to read few pages of book rather than spend time to talk nonsense. I really hate the feeling of I have to beg you then you only fetch me back.
You might think that I’m negative thinking, the one who we serve is God and not a people. Don’t let human error effect the walk with God. Well, the thing was I work before and I still go back to church event willingness. It is all about leadership problem. I admit that I’m a business mentality person. Since the thing is not going to benefit me and I suffer so much due to my wrong decision. The lesson is never repeating the mistake again! I’m a girl who is very normal. Emotional problem can never happen on my work place while I’m leading a team. I’m real me in front of God, I don’t want put up my mask. Concern is not out of sincere heart, please don’t do it if you are not genuine. I really felt irritating and do not blame me to fuck you up! Everyone has a temper and I can tell you that my one is super duper bad, please do not try me up! Thanks for your cooperation.
I love my church and my God! The person I refer is only minority group. When I get promoted, I will solve it soon…
Well, since this is my personal blog, I’m going express the real me. So, I don’t really care who the one read my blog are. Well, the story begun when I sign in to the MSN, out of curious I chat with someone then found out she is one of church member. She tries to follow up me, PLEASE! I really appreciate her but she doesn’t know my story.
The story is I don’t like my cg, I can’t felt the love and also sense of belongingness. I really hate the situation that when I really put my effort to attend the event of night and I always have problem that no one is willing to fetch me back. Due to my work, if I want to go back early then I have really worked my day out to make sure that it happened. The outcome really upset me. I still remember that when I make an effort to attend the night event, when the time is going back they are pushing each other to fetch me back. I very frustrated then shout out; you all just need to drop me to Sunway Pyramid then I’ll find my way back. Then they just fetch me back unwillingly. Since then, I told myself that I’ll never put myself that kind of situation which it really embarrassed me. I really felt super frustrated! I need to left my team behind and I felt that I’m burden for my church member. It really lose-lose situation. Might as well that I focus on my career more and put all attention to my team who are benefit me more.
Lunch section is even worse; I think that it is better than I skip all. Same thing happen, transportation problem. I can’t imagine that you can ask people how to go back without any solution. If don’t have it, please do not ask. I rather spend my time to read few pages of book rather than spend time to talk nonsense. I really hate the feeling of I have to beg you then you only fetch me back.
You might think that I’m negative thinking, the one who we serve is God and not a people. Don’t let human error effect the walk with God. Well, the thing was I work before and I still go back to church event willingness. It is all about leadership problem. I admit that I’m a business mentality person. Since the thing is not going to benefit me and I suffer so much due to my wrong decision. The lesson is never repeating the mistake again! I’m a girl who is very normal. Emotional problem can never happen on my work place while I’m leading a team. I’m real me in front of God, I don’t want put up my mask. Concern is not out of sincere heart, please don’t do it if you are not genuine. I really felt irritating and do not blame me to fuck you up! Everyone has a temper and I can tell you that my one is super duper bad, please do not try me up! Thanks for your cooperation.
I love my church and my God! The person I refer is only minority group. When I get promoted, I will solve it soon…
Friday, October 17, 2008
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