从热浪岛回来，想法改变很多。

终于找到生命中所爱，大自然。其它，变得不再重要。人的一生也许要结婚生子，可对我来说，已经不是第一计划，可有可无。我希望到不同岛屿感受大自然。神啊，何其伟大! 这一切只因有你!

始终，我还是不喜欢面对人群，人总会为自己着想，而做出自私自利的事，总有不停猜忌，这让我好累。
大自然永远是不变的。

我讨厌喧哗的城市, 简单的海声让我有前所未有的宁静，真希望时间可以静止。。

期待下一个心的里程!
总有一个感觉，我生命中重要的他既将出现，好兴奋哦!

After the Redang trip, I did change a lot..

This is the first time after I left the place and I cry because I just love mother nature so much!

I use my heart to felt.

I back to sweet talker when I used to be. I can consider I don't know Ronnie and I can't believe what I said so. Ronnie is one of my superiors and just transfer into my dept. I never speak to him. I must be crazy to said so to him.
Me: I'll going futsal event
R: can u send to Myra coz I hv sent out the email
Me: ok
R: u're going alone?
Me: khoo will fetch me go
R: I means family or boyfriend?
Me: no. U want to be my boyfriend of that day? I mean just 1 day
R: ok

We are talk to each other with very normal tone. Wait for conversation finished then I realise that I said so to him. What happen to me? I really don't hv any idea. Well, I hope he will not take it seriously.

finally.. i can log in to my blogspot. after i being force to open a google account.

my redang trip is awesome! finally, i found love of my life which is Mother Nature. this is the first time i try for snorkeling. i addicted for it! every living creature is just so close to you. i love the feeling.

i make a mind that i want try snorkeling in the different place. when you go for travel, it is so stupid that you are hook on from one city to other city and pressure still there. however, this is my personal opinion only. it is because i have try to rest my hometown and my soul restless and hometown is a city as well.

finally i found that the place where i can use my heart to enjoy every single moment

My Redang trip just around the corner. To be frank, I have not much special feeling. I just want to blank my mind for everything. Use my heart to enjoy this holiday.

Hmm.. looking for partner in this beautiful beach. Well, this can only happen in my imagination. How can it be? Haha. Look like it is impossible because I'm not the one who can trust people easily.

Hopefully when i'm back for reality, Myke also back his work. How nice! We can back together. I just miss his class so much.

Everything come to the end. It's new beginning for me to start all the thing all over again. To more brave to challenge myself. I'm alone but this is the best part because I can do whatever I want. No one can question me.

I wonder can any guy can stand for me? You just be my boyfriend. Don't do your daily, weekly and monthly report because it is not important. Just be there for me when I need you. I also don't like always go out together because I want my private time. Don't ask for sex when you are only my boyfriend because I only listen to my God.

I can't find anyone so that I remains single. Who cares, as long as I'm happy!

Purposely want to know how Tim's doing.. this will be my last talk about him.

I google it and the answer is " Tim ng unable make it for Netherlands trip because he and his wife are welcome.."
After this, I can't find any info. Of course, use common sense also know that welcome their first born. I have no much feeling for this.

After this is my sis, only less than 2 months then she will attached soon.

What happen to me? Oh shit! From the beginning of year desire to get married, until now.. still blank for everything. Love- zero, career- moving backwards.

I know my time is not came yet. I have a feeling of I was throw to deep sea, my darkest feelings. I have enough for all this. For a guy who is not love me, I forgive and forget. For my career, I fight harder atnd maybe I should change a job.

I always said I long for love but somehow I prefer be alone for my private time. Now, it doesn't really matter that I have no one.

Actually, I felt disappointed of my country. I hope for a chance to left here. Maybe a visit or further my studies.
I tried to submit to God, but it seems like more tough. Hope for good news coming on my way

Recently, an issues make me felt that I need reconsider whether get married is a must for me.

I have a few friend when they ar get married, everything seems so nice. After they delivered baby, everything goes wrong. Their husband start show their true color. Some of them have an affairs and some of them neglect them.

The recent story is about my uni mate. They really love each other and always travel together. They get married happily. After the first child arrived, my friend start voice out how sad she was. She is so fragile in everything and need support from her husband. However, the husband request her stop being childish. When she tried to speak to him, he always reply "can we talk tomorrow" but tomorrow never came. She in deep depress.

I scare this will happen to me as well. For me, I'll bring my child to go home. Start to reavaluate our relationship. I will independent to raise my children. However, he has paid for more. Since you don't care, I won't care as well. Just remember to give me your money! Don't worry I won't divorce with you for the benefit of my children.

I'm kind of impatient about my relationship. When something goes wrong, I will end my relationship. For my past relationship, I will make sure I'm not the one want to break up with you. But I will show irate attitude and hint them stop waste my time. After this, we will break up.

I try get used life without Myke's class since he is on long leave.

Without him, no class can make me sweat like mad.
Without him, class seems bored.
Without him, no one guide when I did wrong posture
Without him, no one will speak to me after class finished

Myke, I hope see you after I came back from Redang trip.

Deno, my lovely instructor. He cut his hair till very short. But but he is look so gay. Haha.. just reflect his profile picture, I can't stop smile. Oh my God! It's so cute! Haha.. I think only he keep my smile right now. Deno, your are super and unique. Never tired to smile while see your funny face. Haha..

While on my way to work, a car stopped and owner put down the window and said hi to me.. hmm.. last time is audi car and now is Nissan, the person seems like know me.. well, I don't know you, who care...

I'm disappointed when went to his class and he was not there..

Isn't Myke is on long leave? I guess so.. class without him make me felt so lost. Seems I hv lost something important.

Do u know that you are the one can drive me so much?

When you're back, am I will more eager to make you as my friend? Or will keep distance so that I'll not this kind of hurt in the future?

I decided to focus oh my yoga when your are not around.. I have practice yoga for a year, I still can't do a lot posture. Until Anna told me that I have to stretch my body everyday, so that I can do it all. I wonder why no one inform me about this? I will do as been told.

I will dye my hair on my birthday, I want to have a new look..

Accidentally found Deno's FB account, I was shock by his profile picture. Aiyoo, I think he is a gay for sure.

When I look some info about him, I was delighted. I should pamper myself more

Life is too short, we should do something we like without bother others' opinion about us. Like him, he chose what he like, he is happy and enjoy. But I didn't add him as my friend. Recently, I have write too much about Myke in FB. I not willing share my privacy with him.

In other hand, I found that Myke didn't mix around with them much. He always has ability to drive to know more about him. He is full of mystery. I want to know more about him!

Where is Myke?

Where is Myke??? Suddenly I can found him no where. All his class replaced by others. I don’t even have chance to ask him that why all his class has 2 instructors. Haih..

I think he might have his long leave. Due to the period is too long, so that they placed other instructor to replace him. Why he didn’t mention to me at all while he speaks to me on last week? But, who am I for him to say so..

Hopefully, he came back soon..

I just can't figure out myself

when I felt stress and lost, I'll unconsciously dial Tim's number. oh, god!!

sometimes, when we want consult something, we need dial our own number so we check further. once again, I dial his number again.. Haih.. deep in my heart, he still stand a special place.

I so stress after I look at new timetable at gym. all of Myke's class has 2 instructor, meaning that he didn't came and someone else will replace him. I don't want le!! I pissed till I felt headache. yawn!!

can Myke tell me that which class he want attend? I don't to go without his presence. eeeeeeeee.....

I have a super weird dream.

Due to Aaron very love like my status at Facebook, out of blue mood i'll comment his status. I keep dream that he comment my status, how scary?! I keep remind of myself that I'm inside the dreams until I awake to check my FB. Of course, he didn't do so. Coz he will only like my status and seldom give comment

Another dreams begins, I dreamt that Tim has divorced. He request me to go back his side. During that time, I was with Myke. I remind that how bad he treated me, I decided not to chose him and I wasn't love him that much. In the end, I walk out together with Myke.

However, the reality is he is the only one I loved. Even I like Myke, but I only treat him as my instructor. Nothing more than that. I tell you if Tim request me go back his side, sure I'll.

Dream just a dream... but I frighten until I awake for few time. Isn't scary that Tim request me go back to his side? I have no idea.. ha..