今天，他把他前女友的照片放出来。
昨天，我说残忍的单恋非你专利，因为我好喜欢你。

是在说，不管怎样，她无人取代吗？
我哭不出来。 伤心过一天，开心也过一天。我早就知道你忘不了她，我不会自找苦吃。算了，我没法强求什么。希望我们都能好好过。。

而我会好好想想，毕竟也没想和你怎样

很多时候喜欢一个人，因为可以让心情沉淀。想想自己要什么。我很爱的，也暗示了，但你还是视我不见，我会向前走，也许会走到一个没有你的世界。

myke, 我是真的真心喜欢你，可你还是视我不见。 也许，我对你来说，只是一个普通学员。我不要自己跟自己谈恋爱，我会找到那个会为彼此付出生命去爱的人，我只恨那个人不是你

I hv officially became ecsu staff. U mobile don't want me.. I hv find an alternative to left this hell.

I will send my resume to became cabin crew.. This is one of my dream job where I can became rich person. Hopefully it can became true. I can fly anywhere and I can different place to snorkelling ^^

Thailand n bali trip is an amazing.. Well, this is just the beginning. more and more is on the way....

真心好廉价，对myke的真心却换来自己什么也不是。特地赶上他的课但是他却没来，整颗心都碎了死了。不想在浪费时间在这无味的事。老了，没有力气在面对这事。。

Finally I felt I live again. It is because Myke is back! The life without him is meaningless. I lost control in everything I do and I know because I love him.

I went to gym yesterday and I saw a guy with long hair. I can't stop look at him because he reminds me about Ben. He look much more than Ben. Actually I don't really like guy with long hair but it's just fit him.

I hv move dept to ecsu.. The mgmt quite concern about me whether sincerely or not. I tell u that I don't care at all. Give me the chance and I'll go because I not no happy at all.

damn miss myke.. how la... can't see him on this week.. huhu.. purposely went to gym but class replaced by joey.
damn pissed off, i really show face to joey and i really not happy

i inform aaron wong that i'm his regular member so that he inform me that he is away. this is a fact. i'm just a normal member for him.
i'll shut down all the feeling to other guys except him. my life just can't go on without him for this moment.

Damn! Went to his class but he is not there wil make me angry. Before that, I think that if he skipped the class, I might blacklisted his class again.

After this, joey replaced his class. I dislike her la.......... Then she only inform that myke was there but today is launch of combat 49 so she take the class.. So what she know the thing. I can tell u that she can't teach better than myke. In the middle of class, many members left. I wanted to left as well. After this, she requested that we stay then I decided to stay on.. Myke's class never happened like this..

Hopefully can attend his class without much extra thing happened

In this Q3, reagen and myke didn't attend. Only john was came..

Well, his class start on 5.30 pm but he was there around 2pm++ before I went out for my high tea, he was in cycling room. I can felt he loves his job and passion abt this! I love his spirit!

He even thank me for coming to his class. John is a nice guy :)

So glad that he can back to mid valley class. even a day, but open door for me to meet at least once in a week. Myke, I miss u so much..

Today, I felt extremely happy.. Before went to gym, mood super good

When I reached, I saw MYKE!!! he is reason! Thank God he is back :-)

I hv admitted that I want to feel him when he is near.. But I didn't talk to him because I hv no reason to speak to him..

As long as he is safe, I can see him.. Nothing more than for now. Thank you very much, myke!

Ronnie is back.. I so delights

At least, I didn't felt down anymore. Even I hv no feeling to him, his back make me felt happy. Thank you, ronnie.

2 weeks remains..

I wonders why impact so strong. I extremely down when he is not around.

First thing was he play the song before the class finished, I almost cry.

Second thing was when I inform yin sin the truth I sad for his absence, I almost cry again.

This time I really over-reacted. Myke, I just into you. How about u?

Right now, my location at kampar to enjoy a peaceful break..

Even I can't see a beautiful star but I love peace here. This is the place which is suitable for children to grow up and hv
a nice memory.

Currently myke still away. 3 weeks remains.

Out of super good mood, aaron chat with me. Only for yesterday, I think we won't hv much changes. Just remains as facebook friends.

Can't wait for phuket trip where I can close my love, sea again. Walk along the beach with beautiful star..

Again passed by the church.. I hv feeling to became nun since all the guy I like don't like me.

Only you, never fail to love me. My lord, Jesus.

Let me play enough before go back to u..

I miss myke gor gor

I wonder that isn't he safely arrived? Miss him like crazy............

Purposely went to Myke's class on this beautiful Sunday

Workout 3 hours make me tired like dog but felt shiok!

Do hv conversation wf Myke
Me: hoi
Myke: u so late. Can't wake up? *coughed*
Me: u sick?
Myke: Yup lor
Me: wake up ady but don't want to came
Myke: I will be out station for a month
Me : ( actually I not shock but all plate falls down )
Myke: u don't know?
Me: I don't know
Myke: u really don't know?
Me: hmm.. (nod my head)
Myke: so I won't teach class in Sunway pyramid
Me:where u going?
Myke: johor

After the class,
me: when u going? Start fr next week
Myke: yes
Me: when u came back?
Myke: not sure

I wonder how am I suppose to know that u won't be around if u never told me, ah Myke gor gor.

Purposely check AL slot wf Ronnie but he can't confirm wf me because he don't know how to do it. Somemore he acted cute in front of me. * yes, he is cute like a little boy but I surprise he acted like. He is my superiors ooo.. (fainted)

整个星期下来，见面时间特少。

上星期四和五，我休息
上星期六和天，他休息
星期一，他拿病假
星期二，我休息

过了一个星期，终于见面了，因为要赶着上myke的课，准时放工。

今天轮到他休息。。

是时候好好练习没有Ronnie的生活。有时候真不明白，他也没做什么，但他让我深深地爱上他，为了他愿意做出改变

Even know u MC, I found no courage to send u an email or sms to wish u get well soon.

Never see you for a week, just nice..

Hope everything will be fine, Ronnie. Count down the days which will see u no more.

I might move to cm.. I'm ok with that. It because very convenient for me to go Myke's class.

Anything to do with Myke makes me happy.

Today stuck wf cust, Ronnie and Vignesh wait for me.

Me: sorry, guys. Keep u waiting
Ronnie: y u said sorry? It's not ur fault. It's cust

I think he knows that I'll move out anytime.

It's better just like this. I will learnt to give up him

Now, I realise that I dare not look at Ronnie.

What happened? I seriously don't hv idea

Seriously practice to let go..

Today not good, let me do better on tomorrow!

As usual, I went to gym before work. I never know that all the class is cancel due training provided for Australian trainer.

I so surprise to see Myke and felt happy. After that, I went for jogging and realise that so many people inside eg: Deno, Sandy, Felix, bryan. However I only noticed Myke.

After finished my lunch, on my way to work. I saw Myke walk towards my direction. I change another route instead. What's wrong with me? He will not noticed me anyway.

Keep remind myself that I might switch another Telco to work. I kept remind myself Ronnie is just my superior. I hv perform well today and will continue work hard tmr

Today is a final day.

I clean up my room. As chat wf syidah, she inform TL in digi salary can up to 4k. God, if I got it and I hv no reason to stay in maxis. I freaking suffer hard wf salary given.. I think I will take it seriously to look for other job.

Finally, I understand y Ronnie is not for me. God has his plan for me. I release wf answer given.

I so tension that my ptptn can't be paid faster n I can't realise my plan to buy a car and house. I need a job can give me salary more.

When one of my colleague was asked to move other dept, I scare and my turn coming soon. I forget God is always wf u, and I should put all my trust to Him.

Last 2 days..

Learnt to be strong.. coz the guy I like all don't like me

Count down for last 3 days. After this, I'll treat Ronnie as my superior.

I believe that if guy interest on u, he'll take action. But, he didn't anything.
So I hv set the time, I just move on

Recently I hv strong desire to quit maxis. Why should I let others decided where should I go..

seriously i became super stupid when deal with Ronnie.
sunday, when i went back. he speak to me " balik rumah tidur" at lift of office. when i about to board to LRT then i only realized what he spoke to me.
yesterday, he asked a simple question whether my friend turn out for work. i can't answer.he need elaborate his question eg: when she said hi with me, did you talk to her, bla.. after this, i only answer his question. OMG!
nicole, nicole.. pls wake up. remaining 5 days your dreams will gone!

好想逃避一切。。 找个人嫁算了，可谁要娶我哦?

我得了痴心妄想症，谁可以救我?

Jesus is my virtue
Ronnie is the demon I cling to, l cling

I just a holy fool, oh baby. He is so cruel but I'm still in love with Ronnie, baby.

Step in July, it's not a good month for love. But its good month to work.

Myke- I decided focus him as my instructor.
Ronnie- I can't figure out him. Treat him as my superior will be better. Maybe he has someone else. I don't understand why I show him that my sad look. Look at him quietly will be better

Let me shut the love down until someone can unsealed it.

My life is with family, work, friend, and...... sea

After never see him for 4 days. Finally can meet him on Friday.. when just left 2 of us, I have special feeling. I can't described how I felt. This is the feeling I never felt before. I wonder if Ronnie still same feeling or not.

I felt bad because I skipped Deno's class. Luckily today I can go. If he never look at me on Thursday, I will felt it's ok not to attend his class. His eye full with message.. I will try not to do it again. I felt that I did the bad thing. Just now He went to close the door and found that I was abt to go to his class, he let the door open. We smile to each other.

I know something wrong on me.. I love workout till no energy left. Like the feeling sweating like crazy. Love to run non stop. Use this way to release out all my loneliness, frustration, stress and forget all my trouble.

I'm in dilemma whether went to gym or not. When I posted on celebrity wall, Nicholas ting reply me and I surprise that he went for Felix's class as well. Well, his reply like want me to go to gym. I felt reluctant to go. In the end, I missed out Deno's class. I was running around 20 minutes. Seriously l felt Deno won't felt anything.

I did saw Nicholas in the class but we did not talk coz we are sit too far away. Anyway we just stranger. When I and my friend ( poh ling ) walk back to ladies, I felt an eyes is look at me. Oops, Deno was there. Sorry, will try my best to go ur class on this week. Forgive me, Myke has make me lost my mind. I need time to recover

New schedule is out.. Myke will not conduct class in mid valley. I felt so frustrated. He just left 3 class is sunway.
What happen? Seriously don't know.

Today I went for his class. When I asked him ' where hv u been? ' he reply is not relate at all ' ok, oklor ' and smile. In my heart, u didn't answer my question!? He asked me ' how abt u? So free today? ' I just reply 'today not working, that's y I'm here.

Seriously felt sucks! I tell myself that I'll confirm lost the bet coz I'm not going to after him. I didn't felt anything and release. Maybe I really not into him. After so long, he lost the weight and turned old.

There is a stranger like to said hi to me. After so long for night shift, I met him again. He purposely waive down the windows and good morning to me. And I lazy to entertain him. After this, he stop the car and wait me in front. And I walk to different direction.

He is too old for me even he is rich (who care?) I lazy to entertain him again.

And I focus on listen to my heart to understand what I really want.. Myke will be my instructor from now on.. I don't want further this if God this is the best for me.. force ur heart to do something is not a good practice..

After update my blog and I realised that I forget about Ronnie. Maybe my focus on Myke only.

We have birthday celebration on Thursday. Well, I decided to served the food because it's my act to show I appreciate for what was done.

When I gave the food to Ronnie, he asked me give to Naga. After this, Navin asked me why never give food to Ronnie then I answered he don't want. Ronnie add: stop giving the trouble.

After this, Naga said: Nicole, u never give food to Ronnie. U know guy very sensitive, he is sad. How ar?
I answer next time got anything, I give him first. Ronnie quiet a short while then he said something but I forget ady..

Damn.. my life is so blank.. everything is empty. Oh God!

I heard a song " broken angel ". Can angel be broken? I don't know but I know I'm broken.
I so looney broken angel, I so looney broken angel..........

Bet start.. I have adjust myself that I really like Myke so much till he can felt it.

In fact, I like him but not until extend that is very much. Yesterday I'm going Jaze's class. Well, his class but I'm so sad that he is not Myke. Where ar u, Myke????

After workout too much, my stomach pain. I keep thinking about Myke. Myke oh Myke, can u be my bf faster so that we can finish faster as well.

Out of playful, I bet with my sister that I'll get Myke became my boyfriend.. then my elder sister said I will lose.

haiyoo.. bakar like this way. I hv no idea how to do. jusr believe and do it. eventually u can get what you want..

Yesterday was my birthday, I spend it alone

When I went to secret recipe for lunch, there's another table celebrate bday..but I'm alone. Suddenly felt want to cry and looney..:(

I wish to get bday wish fr Deno, Myke and Ronnie but I get it none..

Oh Lord, I really hate to celebrate alone. Can somebody(my bf) celebrate my 2012 bday together..

I think I need to start to understand Ronnie first.

At first, I thought he is like my father. A quiet guy who can give me comfortable feeling. After this, I found he like hot and sexy girl. Then found out he is not quiet person I think. The feeling is so bad. Haih..

Thought that Myke will conduct the class as normal after saw him last week. The answer is NOT!

I seriously regret not to ask where he has been all this while, argh~~~~~~~~~~

Hin Tong's class full of motivation! I will stop go to Sandy's class since I can't enjoy her class that much. From now on, will go to Hin Tong's class. He keep mention: stop complaint. Don't be afraid. Just do it. Seems like I should quickly go for Myke before I want settle myself down with another person. Haha..

my sis said that Deno is not a gay and he just sissy only. she mention that Myke is 100% man and he is a good looking guy.

when I get to know him, he is a lazy person, irresponsible, stubborn.. just like me. my sis said Deno more suitable for me. but I prefer to go Myke, I hv no plan to hv long relationship wf him. I just want to have beautiful love wf him before I ready to get married. no burden, stress free love.

When I found out that she just another one who love Myke crazy, ok it's interesting.

How about I close with Myke and take some 'special' photo, I think I'll drive some people crazy. Don't worry I won't take it seriously wf Myke. Ppl like him who is irresponsible and I wouldn't hv much interest. If just happen he became my bf, we can't last more than 3 months.

I can sense his loneliness just what I experience right now.. that's y I want to understand him more. Maybe we can be a friend who can support each other. Seriously, I understand the bitterness.

After root canal treatment, I went to gym coz I don't want to stay at house as dead men

Totally I felt numb, I can't talk, smile.. I sit and wait for the class. Suddenly Myke appear in front me. But I can't talk to him coz I can't talk at all.

After I add Deno as friend. Out of curiosity, I checked his photo. All Myke's photo tag under a girl. Maybe, she is his gf. But I hv not much special feeling.

Haha.. felt life is good.. what I want I'll get it except love..

Story begin with Myke continue not to turn out for the class. I have no one to focus so I focus on Ronnie since he is new to our dept and sit right behind of me.

Everynight I dream about him. He is the one make me want to settle down. Even we are never talk to each other, I enjoy this silent. He make me felt comfortable.

Things didn't turn out well. I found out that he just treat me as a little girl and he acted like my father. He just older than me older 5 years old, y he can act this way? The way he treat me like I'm immature people. I felt disappointed!

So, as I wish. I need not turn out for futsal event. Navin asked either khoo or me not turn out. Of course, I happy be the one since none of my friend will go. His reaction is why u don't want to go? Helo, suppose u should be happy that I'm not going

Myke still didn't came back.. huhu.. I wonder where he goes, it been more than 1 month..

Zumba class by Sandy is kind of disappointed! Her teaching style still did not improved. I wonder why can so different. Same dance teach by Myke and Deno, both are excellent. Same dance by Sandy and Deno or Myke, why Sandy give me the feeling that she is not good at teaching.

Haiyoo, it would be good that Myke can take back the class. :( if can't, at least get someone to replace her is better.

Deeply felt that I dislike human world. only Myke perhaps Deno make me felt that I can stay.

How wish that my life is face mother nature only, nothing else more than that.

Today is my rest day.. I really rest in my house.

Look at one movie, 非诚勿扰. Let me have time think about Ronnie. Well, if he is single definitely will think of me. I can see he proudly to show me that we have common interest which is go to gym.

Hopefully I'm the one think too much.

Tmr is Friday again. I hate to go to gym and felt disappointed that Myke is not there. Myke o Myke, u are too much! One month ady, can u be there tomorrow? I'm sad, sad sad.....

Will find time go back to mother nature to recharge myself. Can someone accompany me, pls?

从热浪岛回来，想法改变很多。

终于找到生命中所爱，大自然。其它，变得不再重要。人的一生也许要结婚生子，可对我来说，已经不是第一计划，可有可无。我希望到不同岛屿感受大自然。神啊，何其伟大! 这一切只因有你!

始终，我还是不喜欢面对人群，人总会为自己着想，而做出自私自利的事，总有不停猜忌，这让我好累。
大自然永远是不变的。

我讨厌喧哗的城市, 简单的海声让我有前所未有的宁静，真希望时间可以静止。。

期待下一个心的里程!
总有一个感觉，我生命中重要的他既将出现，好兴奋哦!

After the Redang trip, I did change a lot..

This is the first time after I left the place and I cry because I just love mother nature so much!

I use my heart to felt.

I back to sweet talker when I used to be. I can consider I don't know Ronnie and I can't believe what I said so. Ronnie is one of my superiors and just transfer into my dept. I never speak to him. I must be crazy to said so to him.
Me: I'll going futsal event
R: can u send to Myra coz I hv sent out the email
Me: ok
R: u're going alone?
Me: khoo will fetch me go
R: I means family or boyfriend?
Me: no. U want to be my boyfriend of that day? I mean just 1 day
R: ok

We are talk to each other with very normal tone. Wait for conversation finished then I realise that I said so to him. What happen to me? I really don't hv any idea. Well, I hope he will not take it seriously.

finally.. i can log in to my blogspot. after i being force to open a google account.

my redang trip is awesome! finally, i found love of my life which is Mother Nature. this is the first time i try for snorkeling. i addicted for it! every living creature is just so close to you. i love the feeling.

i make a mind that i want try snorkeling in the different place. when you go for travel, it is so stupid that you are hook on from one city to other city and pressure still there. however, this is my personal opinion only. it is because i have try to rest my hometown and my soul restless and hometown is a city as well.

finally i found that the place where i can use my heart to enjoy every single moment

My Redang trip just around the corner. To be frank, I have not much special feeling. I just want to blank my mind for everything. Use my heart to enjoy this holiday.

Hmm.. looking for partner in this beautiful beach. Well, this can only happen in my imagination. How can it be? Haha. Look like it is impossible because I'm not the one who can trust people easily.

Hopefully when i'm back for reality, Myke also back his work. How nice! We can back together. I just miss his class so much.

Everything come to the end. It's new beginning for me to start all the thing all over again. To more brave to challenge myself. I'm alone but this is the best part because I can do whatever I want. No one can question me.

I wonder can any guy can stand for me? You just be my boyfriend. Don't do your daily, weekly and monthly report because it is not important. Just be there for me when I need you. I also don't like always go out together because I want my private time. Don't ask for sex when you are only my boyfriend because I only listen to my God.

I can't find anyone so that I remains single. Who cares, as long as I'm happy!

Purposely want to know how Tim's doing.. this will be my last talk about him.

I google it and the answer is " Tim ng unable make it for Netherlands trip because he and his wife are welcome.."
After this, I can't find any info. Of course, use common sense also know that welcome their first born. I have no much feeling for this.

After this is my sis, only less than 2 months then she will attached soon.

What happen to me? Oh shit! From the beginning of year desire to get married, until now.. still blank for everything. Love- zero, career- moving backwards.

I know my time is not came yet. I have a feeling of I was throw to deep sea, my darkest feelings. I have enough for all this. For a guy who is not love me, I forgive and forget. For my career, I fight harder atnd maybe I should change a job.

I always said I long for love but somehow I prefer be alone for my private time. Now, it doesn't really matter that I have no one.

Actually, I felt disappointed of my country. I hope for a chance to left here. Maybe a visit or further my studies.
I tried to submit to God, but it seems like more tough. Hope for good news coming on my way

Recently, an issues make me felt that I need reconsider whether get married is a must for me.

I have a few friend when they ar get married, everything seems so nice. After they delivered baby, everything goes wrong. Their husband start show their true color. Some of them have an affairs and some of them neglect them.

The recent story is about my uni mate. They really love each other and always travel together. They get married happily. After the first child arrived, my friend start voice out how sad she was. She is so fragile in everything and need support from her husband. However, the husband request her stop being childish. When she tried to speak to him, he always reply "can we talk tomorrow" but tomorrow never came. She in deep depress.

I scare this will happen to me as well. For me, I'll bring my child to go home. Start to reavaluate our relationship. I will independent to raise my children. However, he has paid for more. Since you don't care, I won't care as well. Just remember to give me your money! Don't worry I won't divorce with you for the benefit of my children.

I'm kind of impatient about my relationship. When something goes wrong, I will end my relationship. For my past relationship, I will make sure I'm not the one want to break up with you. But I will show irate attitude and hint them stop waste my time. After this, we will break up.

I try get used life without Myke's class since he is on long leave.

Without him, no class can make me sweat like mad.
Without him, class seems bored.
Without him, no one guide when I did wrong posture
Without him, no one will speak to me after class finished

Myke, I hope see you after I came back from Redang trip.

Deno, my lovely instructor. He cut his hair till very short. But but he is look so gay. Haha.. just reflect his profile picture, I can't stop smile. Oh my God! It's so cute! Haha.. I think only he keep my smile right now. Deno, your are super and unique. Never tired to smile while see your funny face. Haha..

While on my way to work, a car stopped and owner put down the window and said hi to me.. hmm.. last time is audi car and now is Nissan, the person seems like know me.. well, I don't know you, who care...

I'm disappointed when went to his class and he was not there..

Isn't Myke is on long leave? I guess so.. class without him make me felt so lost. Seems I hv lost something important.

Do u know that you are the one can drive me so much?

When you're back, am I will more eager to make you as my friend? Or will keep distance so that I'll not this kind of hurt in the future?

I decided to focus oh my yoga when your are not around.. I have practice yoga for a year, I still can't do a lot posture. Until Anna told me that I have to stretch my body everyday, so that I can do it all. I wonder why no one inform me about this? I will do as been told.

I will dye my hair on my birthday, I want to have a new look..

Accidentally found Deno's FB account, I was shock by his profile picture. Aiyoo, I think he is a gay for sure.

When I look some info about him, I was delighted. I should pamper myself more

Life is too short, we should do something we like without bother others' opinion about us. Like him, he chose what he like, he is happy and enjoy. But I didn't add him as my friend. Recently, I have write too much about Myke in FB. I not willing share my privacy with him.

In other hand, I found that Myke didn't mix around with them much. He always has ability to drive to know more about him. He is full of mystery. I want to know more about him!

Where is Myke?

Where is Myke??? Suddenly I can found him no where. All his class replaced by others. I don’t even have chance to ask him that why all his class has 2 instructors. Haih..

I think he might have his long leave. Due to the period is too long, so that they placed other instructor to replace him. Why he didn’t mention to me at all while he speaks to me on last week? But, who am I for him to say so..

Hopefully, he came back soon..

I just can't figure out myself

when I felt stress and lost, I'll unconsciously dial Tim's number. oh, god!!

sometimes, when we want consult something, we need dial our own number so we check further. once again, I dial his number again.. Haih.. deep in my heart, he still stand a special place.

I so stress after I look at new timetable at gym. all of Myke's class has 2 instructor, meaning that he didn't came and someone else will replace him. I don't want le!! I pissed till I felt headache. yawn!!

can Myke tell me that which class he want attend? I don't to go without his presence. eeeeeeeee.....

I have a super weird dream.

Due to Aaron very love like my status at Facebook, out of blue mood i'll comment his status. I keep dream that he comment my status, how scary?! I keep remind of myself that I'm inside the dreams until I awake to check my FB. Of course, he didn't do so. Coz he will only like my status and seldom give comment

Another dreams begins, I dreamt that Tim has divorced. He request me to go back his side. During that time, I was with Myke. I remind that how bad he treated me, I decided not to chose him and I wasn't love him that much. In the end, I walk out together with Myke.

However, the reality is he is the only one I loved. Even I like Myke, but I only treat him as my instructor. Nothing more than that. I tell you if Tim request me go back his side, sure I'll.

Dream just a dream... but I frighten until I awake for few time. Isn't scary that Tim request me go back to his side? I have no idea.. ha..

My work is getting stresssss...

I found out that when people talk to me face to face, I can't focus and I don't even what they are talked. At first, I don't even care till Myke speak to me.

I really admire Myke! When he speak to me, I can't focus as well.
Myke: just now, jam isn't?
Me: huh?
Myke: jam, isn't?
Me: no, I tired coz too many OT. ** I thought he was refer to my workout just now

After ponder for 5 minutes, I only realized that he was asked why I late for class.. aiyoo @@ give him this answer like purposely late for his class. Oh God! I think he must think bad abt me.

After this, I reminds myself that stay calm and focus. Thank you to Myke for wake me up! Now, I know when ppl into the work too much, no matter what ppl speak and act. You wouldn't care at all.. scary

Now, society has changed. Some people proud to be third party in relationship.

Sometimes, I do exposes to this chances. Recently, Alan has acted differently to me. Purposely ask me some question (luckily I have change my seat) and look at me differently. Last time, I used to talk to him but he will react normal and unfriendly. Now, it is totally changed. The problem is he has girlfriend. I wonder that why he willing to walk more to ask me a question while his gf so near to him. I thought that both of them have broken up but ys said they are not.

When we go to function last night, he purposely queue behind me ( I hope it's just a coincident ). I will test more to prove that I'm wrong.

I have strong desire to play a while with him, but the problem is gf in same office. I decided not to do so because it will drop my images. He is the guy I like when I look at his first sight.

Hopefully, it is just my wild guess.. if I were third party, I only stay for 3 months in relationship because my time is limited and can't play too much

Original comment from Aaron
Then fast fast lor..can make it 12.12.12

Amendment from me
Then fast fast became my mum son-in-law.. can make it 12.12.12

Ha..

Y he specify 12.12.12, not 11.11.11..

And I know that he is not the trully concern me.. he just acted out of convenient only..
Hopefully his prophecy to me will came true.

By 12.12.12, I have get married

I'm not keen on politics. However, I have change my view after election at Sarawak.

The result is BN still rules. However, they have lost majorities support from Chinese. The outcome same as 308 election back to 3 years ago, MCA lost majority support from Chinese. Can we change the Malaysia? Maybe just times matter if current parties failed to fulfill citizens' need.

I used to be die-hard support for MCA. I still support MCA head, Dr Chua. However, I seriously dislike our PM. Every decision he did only benefit certain race. He is a racist.

Wake up, Malaysian! do practice your right on the upcoming election, your decision may change our life to be better!

I so sick for past 2 days..

Hopefully it'll be fine soon.. my original plan is give my mummy a surprise bday.. hopefully it is not the other way.. round.

Well, I stop all my daily routine. Work + gym.. haiyoo. My stomach still can felt glu glu.. I touch any oil at all. La...... hungry wei.. plain porridge all the way. I hate diarrhea...

When I visit doctor once again, she said: still got gas inside. Let me hear what is happening inside.. haha.. interesting doctor ^^

I like this week schedule.^^

I can attend Myke's class for twice. I will do something extra stupid in front of him. Like today, I did wrongly on my step, I can show my sorry face to him which I never do in front of not close ppl. I can't imagine why I will show my tongue and did a cute sorry face to him. I felt disgusting! What's wrong? I don't know. When he said hello with me, he didn't voice out and just use his mouth to show what he want to said.

It's so interesting between us. I hope for more.. it's good to know person like him.

Today, I took a picture of my dream bag. I said: can I take a picture for this bag? I want to get someone to buy it for me. After I posted the picture, Aaron asked me about bag's brand. How I wish that you can buy it for me, haha... however, it is impossible..

Celebrity fitness cust service make me pissed off. I'm angry of memberships fee increase without my knowledge.
When I check with counter, make me even angry

Me: y the fees increase without my knowledge?
Cs-male: we send out the letter to alert member
Me: can u check which add I register
Cs-male: inform my old add
Me: this is old add
Cs-male: u should updates us ur new add

On the spot, I lost temper
Me: so, this is my fault? I was being told that my memberships fee will not increase till I terminated
Cs-male: who told u?
Me: Eugene, he has quit
Cs can't handle me, seek help fr senior
Cs-female: oh.. u just want the letter? She went a chat with other colleague. Fill up done
Me: I can terminated my memberships any time
Cs-female: yes..

I very pissed the way they handle their cust. I may reserved right to complaint male staff but female I will not spare...
Super duper disappointments! The reason I stay because Myke & Deno. Well, they can't keep me for long. I might left the club as well..

Myke's concern keep me happy for 2 days! Thank you.. time to face the reality. He'll do all these coz I'm first time to his class. True also. It is also part of his duty.

Usually, Deno will not announced his leave. Out of sudden, he informed that he will be away due to Qing Ming.

Finally is Felix. He asked me y never attend the class. I reply without emotion and said: where got long, 1 week only. He reply: I means Mid Valley class. My reply: work can't finished, can't go( actually I lie cuz I wanted to end the conversation & I can't recall at all whether I attend his class on last thurs or not). Whole conversation, my reply to him is without emotion, cold feeling and conclusion is I'm a bad person. After this, I recalled whole scene is all his concern is sincere and full with touch. Maybe quite close with u and I will show my true color only. Maybe if the person is Deno or Myke, they will get better treatment.

Super addicted to Myke's class, it will result d I'll divert my concern to existing practice. Sorry, Deno & Felix

Trully, Myke has brighten my day.. finally, I take a big step to go body pump class because it is too challenge for me to attend.

the class simply nice and awesome! ^^

he found that I did wrongly n give some guide.

I think he found guilty d he didn't say hi to me. that's y he reacted coz he is a friendly person.


after class, I smile to him as normal. he begin conversation
Myke: how many times?
me: use my body language to show tis is my first time
Myke: really? but u're there n I can't see u. u can't see me, right?
me: I can see you from a mirror..
Myke: next time came to front then I can see u..
me: nodded my head

*** the way I spoke to him like a little girl acted cute. OMG!
*** I noticed that he lost voice, he is such a caring person. no wonder his class is popular. I felt so warm after a short conversation wf him.

in my heart, it is not easy to be front the class especially his class full with ppl. once again, my sixth sense is correct, he is able a good lesson experience. overall, it is such a wonderful day!

Since I will meet Clare at sunway pyramid, I decided to go gym first. Of course, it is based on class schedule as well. Myke's class tempted me a lot. I love the way he teach. Recently I found myself just enjoy his class very much, maybe I want to try different class which I never attend before.. he is a good instructor, I hv more confident d he able to provide a nice lesson.

So, timing is so right. I met him at the corridors. Very naturally I smile to him but he didn't. Yawn..... Adui, what's wrong to u? Can't even smile to a person who attend ur class more than 6 months? Even i never hv any communication with u before.

After this, I was not satisfied the way he acted. Keep mumbling to myself.

When I take a stair to first floor, he on his way back to changing room. He look at me non-stop. When I realized, he turn away. This is the second time he look at me like this. First time was I attended Deno's class and Deno late for class. He was there because he need practice dance together with Deno for bollywood Zumba dance on deepawali. While he is waiting, the way he look at me exactly same.

After this, I attend his class normal. Like nothing happened.

sometimes i felt myself is lucky..

when people wanted something badly, i just can get it without much effort.
i think that it makes a lot of people felt that it is unfair

recently, i applied for fraud dept job. i got it but the working time is scary. so, i decided to turn down the offer.
there is another job offer - marketing device execs. i will go for this job for sure. i will take it seriously. it is because i got a chance to meet people face to face. it means that getting to a boyfriend shouldn't be a problem, i guess. God, pls help me~~~ and, my work place can remain at KLCC. if i got this offer, i'll shout to Lord for joy!

when I saw my team mates left the team and someone replaced their seat, I became very emotional.

today, definitely is not a day for me. Haih...............
everything seems out of control.

I hv an interview on tmr before move to other dept. hopefully it's a fixed shift team. but it seems like it's not.
maybe, things always go against the way u want.

Happy~~ finally paid n settled everything!

My so many first time.
First time to take a flights
First time to Redang
First time to an expensive trip
First time to use bonus for a trip.

Hopefully my second time is with my boyfriend.. even it is just a dream.^^

My journey at klcc will end soon. It shows that most of my time wil go to Sunway pyramids club..

Haih.. I need to go Lot 10 to attend Deno & Felix's class every Sunday.. @@
Good news is Deno hold many class@ 7.10am n Myke also hv more class there. Right now, he didn't teach Zumba dance and replaced by Sandy. I'm so sad........ look at number of ppl to attend n can know how good Myke can teach~~

Today, I enjoy so much for both class! Deno n I have more communication, he even teased me for wrong step. Argh...... when I said goodbye to Felix without heart, never think he can smile to me so genuinely. He really brighten my day at least for 5 minute. Haha..

Hopefully I can go forensic dept successfully!
Wat I look for is fixed shift.. my career still progress..

Well, changes wil take place soon.. I wonder how..

I was asked to go for interview of hello magazine. Cool~~

I'm getting emotional...

Today I attended Deno's class. I felt like to cry. I want to tell him d I suffer n I down. However I never do so. He is a gay oo.. I really don't know wat I can do to make me felt better.

Soon. I will move another dept. Everything is full uncertainty..........

So much going to take places.. elite team will be removed. It shows that I need to move another dept

God is so real! In this morning, I just shout that I'm ready to change, there it cames..

Where am I be landed? I just hope that I still work at klcc and I don't want to answer call, pls..
Hopefully I'll go to marketing dept..

Abt Mr Xiao Wei, since he entertain ppl due to his job. For me, just need to know when & where draw the line will be do.

When changes came, ppl will lost direction.. I hope under guidance of God, I'll fine..^^

今天睡迟了。

当我看到巴士在我眼前，我以为就差那几步，我可以赶上。 但是我并没有赶上。
就好像小伟老师，我无可药救的认为我们有那么一丁点的可能性。却在他删除回复的一瞬间宣布破灭。

然后，我选择走过另一个地方等车。其实，我一直都知道这里可以等到很多车，可我也不知在固执什么，都不来这里。

我突然想通，人吗，就这么一个人生。好好给自己多一个机会!

3月1日2011年，改变的日子 ;)

Dislike dislike! I dislike ppl who delete his reply comment at FB. Unfortunately Mr Xiao Wei did it. Gosh, he didn't reply anything special n I wonder y he want delete it. I felt angry. I think that d only reason he did so because he wrote down something which is not true..

Haih, felt kind of disappointments. I think d ppl who ar real does not exits anymore. Especially he is in entertainment industry.

However I admire the way he pursue his dream. I read an article abt if take out ur job right now, wat did u hv? My answer is I hv nothing! It is time to develop my alternative career. Sounds like interesting! I hv been thinking d I should begin write some article.

现在好想陪小伟老师过他的生日....

I hv a new thinking.

Maybe it is better to hv god son or daughter then u hv one. Firstly, u don't need to give so much responsibility. You hv more time + focus. When u free, u may go out with him

古小伟老师让我很感昌，我疯狂的跟随着他的一举一动，只因他不经意的关心我。。

虽然我很清楚我们之间绝对不可能，但我却不可自拔深陷其中!!

其实我现在真正喜欢的人是 Deno, 但他好像没有反应哦。。 结果我就一面倒向小伟老师。 也许，我贪婪着他不经意的关心，他让我的心暖轰轰。。他去上海还没回来，希望他能安全归来。但我却没办法亲眼看他让我很伤心。

Yesterday was Valentine. Too bad was my rest day. I didn't go out because u'll see a lot of couple. It reminds that I didn't archive my goal. Sad ar............

I quite emo.

Through website I saw 小伟老师的 fb, I sent request to add him as friend. Then, he approved. I saw his sharing 一个人的情人节也可以很浪漫，享受着玫瑰花荼~~ well, it do delights me then I felt better. Haha...

When I was awake, I saw he left some comment in my FB. I felt so so so happy~~ and I scream! Wow! God is good all the time!

I felt like i'm a little girl in admire with her idol, the feeling is awesome!

Let me introduce Mr Xiao Wei.
He is a great makeup artist. He never stop at one place and keep on try different thing. Now, he acts as a singer.

He is the only one can makes me to buy the book. What an amazing person~~

Feb, my deadline closer but I don't hv bf yet. Well, I do felt tension only when I'm free

If God want me to remain single, let His will be done.

When I reach age of 30 and I still single, I will further my master to ensure that I able give myself and family more.

Of course, I do felt kind of looney when I saw my friend attached and have child. But, look at their partner will think that it's better to remain single. What I look for is not someone tall, dark & handsome. The important is he able support me more, love God n love me.

I have a sweet dream. In my dream, Aaron is my husband. He care & love me. However, it is just a dream and it is impossible became reality. Let me keep it in my heart.^^

Chinese new year! So far, I eat & sleep and repeat same routine.

I don't hv any intend to meet friends.. hehe..

Seriously felt d I hv a super luck to attract opposite gender on this year

Wil make sure grab the chance to end my single life on this year. I really need someone to lean on n support each other.

Who will be the one? I'm super excited!

Since Deno on leave, I deeply depressed. Thank God d Felix make my day! He do the funny face to me and touch my head while posing beside me. I felt like a little girl play with my best buddy! Thanks Felix, I felt blessed d I hv a friend like u!

Finally, I know the reason he look at me. He just want to inform d he will be on long CNY leave.

In the future, I hope d he can talk to me personally. Also, we can partner to go out for travel.

This year, I'll go for Redang. I really hope d he can go together with me.

其突，我和Felix比较熟，上完Deno课后，看到他这么早，就跑去找他然后和他一起进课室。

上完yoga后，经过舞蹈教室时，因为知道他的课，总是会找寻他。今天他定定看着我，可能只是刚好，我心想请问你心碎的感觉吗？如果有，这也是我的感觉。我己不知如何，我选择放弃，因为只要你快乐就好了。我是真的真的真的很爱你。

It's so frustrated to attend Deno's class. I think it is because we still don't know each other.

He is gay? How came he always stick to aunty? Why they always came together? What is their relationship? I so frustrated! We hv a contest competition, I hope I can win the ticket. So, I can pass ticket to Deno then he can watch together wf aunty. I hv reached a point to hope that I just want him to be happy.

When u love a ppl, it doesn't mean that u hv him fully. Maybe do the thing can make him happy is my way to show d I really lov him.

Out of concern, Myke care a member. However he was scolde by her. In my heart, I felt bad abt this. When someone do something wrong, the more u need treat him better. I believe that he will changed. However, it is only applicable to Myke, haha.. I just his class so much!

Deno, hv a nice weekend! It is really uncomfortable never see u for a week. We shall meet up on thurs.

Papa wil be back to home for rest at least for 6 month.

My bro n I will start to bear family burden to together. I think d if I get married, I need to hv at least 3 children. At least hv 1 male, in case anything he will in charged.

My husband faster appear! I hope my plan will came true, ^^

deno is a gay?

When I watch Ken's show, I can't stop myself fr scream. Ah!!!

They talk abt the 'BEST SISTER' for girl.
1) they can dance very well. When they dance, they can be very man
2) they ar very gentle

Everything they said Deno has it all!!! It could a high possibility d Deno is a gay. Haih.. truth is cruel. I can't imagine d I like a gay because I hate gay. OMG OMG OMG!

If I be friend wf him, I think d he will my sista also.

爸爸跌倒进了医院，妈妈担心吃不下睡不着。想着想着，眼泪不停往下留。。

哭虽然是一种发泄情绪的方式，但是它并不能解决问题。

在这个时刻，真希望Deno可以抱我一下，也好想看到TlM!

I hv a nightmare which is Deno quit! Oh no, pls don't let it happen til I got bf..

I hv a strong feeling that all vision n dream shall came to pass, as long as I believe!